最近 Michael Jackson 的驗屍報告出爐，死因也漸漸明朗：醫生對他使用了過量的 "麻藥" （不是安眠藥、也不是抗憂鬱或焦慮藥）幫助睡眠... 麻藥的劑量重到可以讓一隻大象昏睡過去，真的很誇張；這說明了 MJ 用藥成癮已經有很長的時間，才可能有這麼強的抗藥性。

是怎樣大的壓力，讓人要用這麼致命的手段，只是為了「好好睡一覺」？

MJ 的醫生當然會被起訴，起訴的原因是「過失殺人」；以我個人觀點，這有待商榷，因為那樣高的劑量足以致死，一般人是不會拿來用在人類身上－－除非他想謀殺那個人！而且，MJ 需要的是「心理治療師」，不是一個越俎代庖幫他注射麻藥的「心臟科醫生」；就算是 MJ 要求，他也不應該為 MJ 施打麻藥，身為醫生的職業道德在哪裡？他應該在 MJ 有睡眠問題時轉介給心理醫師。

MJ 的人生真的太不正常了，讓人驚悚的是，在 HIStory 後兩年發行的混音舞曲專輯 Blood On The Dance Floor 中有一首 "Morphine"，其歌詞簡直就是對自己死因的預言：止痛劑 "Demerol"。Demerol 是一種有嚴重副作用的止痛藥，詳情參考：Demerol 鴨片類止痛。（註：應該是「鴉」片。）

或者換個角度來想，記得嗎，1993 年 MJ 被指控性侵兒童，因為不堪各種壓力而開始使用止痛劑、安眠藥、抗憂鬱藥而成癮。也許當時 (1997 年) 其實 MJ 就已經對這種止痛藥又愛又恨，因此寫下這首歌。它的節奏很重，其實在我喜歡的 MJ 歌曲中排前幾名，只是我沒想到...

MJ 也許很多方面都足以作為世人的典範，但關於用藥卻絕對是最糟的示範，這種方式簡直就是慢性自殺！而他身邊的人不加以阻止還協助他更依賴藥物，應被視為 MJ 猝逝的元兇。

MJ 的人生真的太複雜了，千絲萬縷難以理出頭緒，但很多事情的發生都有前因後果。他的天分讓他幼年即站上舞台發光發熱；他的遺傳疾病讓他的外貌變化招惹非議；他的話題性成為嗜血的媒體狗仔最好的營養劑；他的巨大財富讓許多人拼命想分一杯羹... 這樣的因果關係還可以繼續列出更多更多。想著我都為 MJ 感到疲憊了，事實上，MJ 不是猝死，這個過程從他還是孩童時站上舞台就開始了。

Blood On The Dance Floor / 1997 / Morphine

Written and Composed by Michael Jackson.

He got flat baby
Kick in the back baby
A hart attack baby
I need your body

A hot kiss honey
He's just a bitch baby
You make me sick baby
So unrelying

I'm such a swine baby
All down the line daddy
I hate your kind baby
So unreliable

A hot buzz baby
He's one of us baby
Another drug baby
You so desire

Trust in me Trust in me
Put all your trust in me
You're doin' morphine

Hoo!

They got place baby
Kicked in the face baby
You hate your race baby
You're just a liar

Your every lick baby
Your dog's a bitch baby
You make me sick baby
You soul survior

She never cut from me
She neer cut baby
I hate to work baby
You just a rival

Always to please daddy
Right up and leave daddy
You're throwing shame daddy
So undesirable

Trust in me
Just in me Put all your trust in me
You're doin' morphine

Go'on baby

Relax
This won't hurt you
Before I put it in
Close your eyes and count to 10
Don't cry
I won't convert you
There's no need to dismay
Close your eyes and drift away

Demerol
Demerol
Oh god he's taking Demerol
Demerol
Demerol
Oh god he's taking Demerol

He's tried
Hard to convinve her
To be over what he had
Today he wants twice as bed
Don't cry
I won't resent you
Yesterday you had his trust
Today he's taking twice as much

Demerol
Demerol
Oh god he's taking Demerol
Hee-hee-hee
Demerol
Demerol
Oh god he's taking Demerol

Hee
Oooh

OH!!!!!

He got shit baby
Your dog's a bitch baby
You make me sick baby
You are a liar

Is truth a game daddy
To win the fame baby
It's all the same baby
You're so reliable

Trust in me
Trust in me
Put all your trust in me
She's doin' morphine

Hoooo!

You just sit around talkin' nothing
You're takin' morphine
Hoo!
Go'on baby
You just sit around just talking about it

You're takin' morphine
Hoo-Hoo!
Just sit around just talking nothing about it
You're takin' morphine
You just sit around talking about it
You're takin' morphine
You just sit around just talkin' nothin'
And takin' morphine

Hoo-Hoo!
I'm going down baby
You're takin' morphine

Go'on baby!
Hoo!
Hoo!
Morphine!
Do it!
Hoo!
He's takin' morphine
Morphine!
Morphine!!