一年了。

Michael Jackson 在復出演唱會前夕猝逝之後，過了一年；時光匆匆，新聞熱度也已不再，雖然斷斷續續有他的身後之事或家人的新聞出現，但也總掀不起大的浪濤，看報紙的人多半一眼看過就算了，人是多麼容易遺忘的動物？

猶記得去年為了 MJ 與一個我欣賞了很久 (事實證明我識人不明？) 的格主討論而特地申請了 UDN 帳號浮出水面，辯論到最後，那位板主依然堅持己見，稱 MJ 漂白了自己，打死也不相信 MJ 是因為遺傳性的皮膚病變而變白；還有許多人與之爭論更多的議題，但最後不了了之。

也許經過許多媒體的 "平衡報導" 後，有些人終於相信了 MJ 不是壞人，但卻還有更多人自始至終都還是保持懷疑的態度。

MJ 曾說："Lies run sprints, but the truth runs marathons."

謊言稍縱即逝，真理恆久不衰。相信 MJ 的人提出再多證據，但長久以來被媒體小報不實訊息轟炸的人們仍心存質疑。直到蓋棺論定，直到，他死後驗屍報告流出。啊，原來他真的得了白斑病、原來他真的沒有漂白了自己！逝者已矣，這個明證再也無法否認，但謠言卻造成 MJ 一生的冤屈；從他變白以後，在人們心中的形象就逐漸妖魔化，有句話說好事不出門、壞事傳千里，在 MJ 身上卻是好事顯得無足輕重，壞事... 無中生有。真是何其不幸？最不可思議的是，全世界就是誤會、抹黑他長達數十年這麼久；而真相大白之後，可有人表達過一點歉意？

被誤會之後，人一般有三種反應：一是極力辯解、證明自己的清白；二是隨你怎麼說、清者自清；三是你說我壞、我就真的壞到底給你看！

真實世界的 MJ 是壞不起來的，所以他用音樂表達他的想法，在音樂錄影帶中與各種妖魔鬼怪站在同一邊，裝神弄鬼個徹底，自嘲意味濃厚。這段影片叫 Ghosts（中譯：鬼府神宮；別人辛苦翻譯影片，我就不放上來，有興趣的人請自行點開連結欣賞。），故事敘述 MJ 不被鎮民接受、鎮長帶領民眾前往他的住所要將這個 "怪人" 驅逐出境。影片很炫、很有趣，而且 MJ 在裡面換了五種裝扮，化妝技術相當高明，看到最後的拍攝花絮可能會讓你大吃一驚，絕對想不到其中一個角色竟然是 MJ 扮演的。

某方面來說，我覺得這部影片有點像是 MJ 的自白；他認為自己不是怪物，他變的戲法只是要逗人開心，沒有要傷害人的意思。片中的三首歌－－ Ghosts、Is It Scary?、2 Bad －－像是吶喊式的宣告：即使天真如 MJ，經過多年不實謠言的攻擊，也已深刻了解，他自身的財富與名氣已經招致忌恨，他的皮膚病變成了有心之人攻擊的手段，他親近孩童、照顧病弱的行為反而被人當成編造故事的材料。

真是太糟糕（too bad）了，不是嗎？

Blood On The Dance Floor / 1997 / 2 Bad

Song & Lyrics Written by Michael Jackson

Told me that you're doin' wrong
Word out shockin' all alone
Cryin' wolf ain't like a man
Throwin' rocks to hide your hands

You ain't done enough for me
You ain't done enough for me
You are disgustin' me, yeah yeah
You're aiming just for me
You are disgustin' me
Just want your cut from me
But too bad, too bad

Look who just walked in the place
Dead and stuffy in the face
Look who's standing if you please
Though you tried to bring me to my knees

Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it

Hell all up in Hollywood
Sayin' that you got it good
Creepin' from a dusty hole
Tales of what somebody told

What do you want from me?
What do you want from me?
Tired of you haunting me, yeah yeah
You're aiming just for me
You are disgustin' me
You got blood lust for me
But too bad, too bad

Look who got slapped in the face
It's dead and stuffy in the place
I'm right back where I wanna be
I'm standin' though you're kickin' me

Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it

Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it

[Rap: Shaquille O'Neal]
Life's about a dream
I'm really undefeated when MJ is on my team, theme
Reality brings forth realizm
It's the man of steel organizm, twizm
Not from the prizm, take charge like manilla
Nine five shaq represent with the Thrilla
Grab my crotch, twist my knee, then I'm through
Mike's bad, I'm bad
Who are you

[Michael]
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it

Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it
Why don't you just scream and shout it
Too bad too bad about it

(註：影片中的歌曲並不是完整的一首歌，比如 rap 的部分完全沒有。但是在網路上我找得到完整影音檔的卻不讓人嵌入；如有興趣請自行蒐尋、聆聽。)

接近一周年的這幾天，我只要想到就會不自覺有些感傷，為他所受的不公平待遇感到不平、為他一輩子的冤屈感到憐惜、也為了他的英年早逝感到可惜；我相信有更多 MJ 迷感受比我深刻，不過如同先前所寫文章所提，我還是認為 MJ 續劇化的死亡方式其實有助於翻轉他的形象，更同時能藉由他身後留下的影像傳達他由來已久、但並不廣為人知的博愛的那一面；再說，離開這個過分嚴苛的世界，對 MJ 而言不可不謂是種解脫，這讓我在哀傷中還有一些寬慰的感覺。

我沒有辦法親自到美國 MJ 靈前向他致意，僅以此文表達我的心意。

獻給一個純真善良心懷大愛的靈魂。

PS-1.影片連結的中文翻譯不見得 100% 正確；因為像歌詞這樣如詩般短短的字句，每個人解讀都可能有不同涵意，僅供參考。

PS-2.如果你還是不相信我說的，網路上有 MJ 的驗屍報告檔案可以下載，在第 11 頁清楚寫著 MJ 患有白斑病(wikipedia 的說明；或不懂英文的話請看中文版)；如果你懶得看，以下是截圖還有相關的翻譯。