2008 / 7 / 14 (2 歲 8 個月)

It’s a stressed Monday!
Before I settled every problem down, my monkey mind had run amok. I didn’t eat well; I was sleep deprived, and my job or the family or life-in-general seemed to demand more and more of my time and energy….and the most suffering was I have a terrible running nose, splitting head, crying daughter and ailing son here and now.

It’s also a sticky mental state -- all my those woulda, coulda, shoulda’s, all that plotting and planning, dissecting agendas and cluttered mind deteriorated my indisposed body.

I was stressed on this first working day of a week.

I need a few of my favorite coping mechanisms for stress.
Relax in the bed?
Sweat in the exercise?
Dance in the melody?
Refresh in the hot bath?
Refill in the reading?
No……….What’s the best now?
Yes….That is
Express in the writing here and now

In those days, I live in the past, fretting over my mistakes. I live in the future, doubled over with anxiety at the possibility of the worst case scenario. I have been so busy looking backwards and forwards, I don’t see the hole in front of me (my stressed body, clutter mind, and powerless spirits).

I have to reset my priority, learn how to eat and sleep again, award myself for what I have done and stop criticizing myself for what I haven’t done.

I am writing and allowing the suppressed feelings to surface.
I am taking inventory of my habits.
I am sure and convinced that I am blessed and lucky for I am to get better relationships, to be more successful in my any roles, to feel more fulfilled, and to have more energy.