In the dark, old, and damp house, everything looks so strange even though all items are still the same.
I know it is because I have changed.

The life the once inhabited here has left the building.
This should be an upheaval but I can experience it more peacefully.
I will survive from this emotional trauma and loss of a love one for I am a reborn me with new memory of the past and new power to the future.

At the very moment when things are starting to change, life is offering itself to me in a way that I must need to re-evaluate our lives and reflect.

The first thing that I must do is to understand that the upheaval that is bringing me such heavy emotional pain is a time of transformation, rebirth, an awakening.

When I label my situation as something that robs me of the ability to see it as a new beginning, it becomes that which I will call it most… a crisis, a mess, chaos, madness, a big problem, life just sucking!

But this time, I am different…
I get out of life exactly what I determine it to be. If I see it as a crisis, it becomes one. If I look at it as a time to re-evaluate and redo, life can be a tremendous opportunity to reawaken into a new beginning, to hit the magical reset button and do over.

I determine that it is time of personal growth and transformation.
It is a hidden journey on a wondrous path to unimaginable promises…

It is when I finally accept it and decide once and for all that I am at a point in my life that new doors of opportunities are opening up for me, I can start walking through new thresholds.

I leave the past was I belong… in the past.

I remember them not for the hurts but I cherish them for the wisdom they left impacted in my life.

On my journey home and the past, I know there is imagination not only in the future but in the past; I keep rewriting the past, and then I am strong enough to take on the trip home, even numerous trauma and pain there waiting for me.