There are still unfinished businesses in my life.

It has better to say: pity and regret.

They are

貧: the poverty in my families. They live in a poor situation. How to enrich their life? Whenever I go back hometown, I would prepare lot of stuff for them, money, food, and good stories. But the pity is that it’s hard for me to uplift them all up. But whenever I saw the poor around, I will think about my families and my sympathy raise naturally. But in the same time, I will feel stressed for my incapability to save the whole poor up. The poverty in soul and spirits is the most unendurable and the financial poverty is like a monster destroys all wonderful experience in their lives.

賤:the valueless in their choices. Most of them don’t know the existence itself in this life is a value. They belittle themselves or use other wrong addiction to hide their self-inferiority. They don’t know everyone is valuable. No one is valueless. The value of our life is to glorify our existence by giving and sharing as much love as possible.

碌: the labor in their every survive. How desperate they are to get survive from the outside demanding environment. How abandoned they are to fight against their illness in mind and physical.

孤:loneliness in their journey of life. They are doomed to be lonely for people fall in love with the prosperous , the positive, the healthy, the beautiful, the strong, and the hopeful. The falling, the negative, the sick, the ugly, and the hopeless have less or no choice to love or to be loved. They are born to be lonely.

夭: death in their life, relationship, hope, health, beauty, and love. Death is the most real and unchangeable thing. If death is a new start for another life, I will accept it bravely but the disaster is that it is the prediction of the next tragedy. The sorrow spread and ruin all part of the aware, awake, the alive, and the survive. Undoubtedly, death will never disappear but relive in another way, story, and people.

They are all the unfinished business in my life and they are always the sorrow part of my life.

Yes, I am in sorrow.

I can not be strong and happy all the time.

And please allow and accept my sorrow.

I am in sorrow for I am in love. 我悲傷是因我有愛

Sometimes, I love myself only, and I forget my uncompleted business.

When I love myself only, forgive me.

For sometimes I need a break, I cannot work all the time.

I need a relief from my romantic imagination, my selfish love, and my lazy egoism.

I am not always so great.

And I know it’s bittering to be great all the time.