I am more and more aware of the difference between my ego dance and soul dance.

It’s my ego dance when I fancy that I will satisfy my ego’s hunger of attention, affirmation, and appreciation from others or any outside force.

It’s my ego dance when I experience the excitement and thrill of falling in love and lust, and think it will last forever.

It’s my ego dance when I dream that I will complete my sufficiency or happiness by getting something, someone, or sometime.

While dancing with my ego, I find more frustration, deficiency, self-defeated, and longings instead of my imagined ideal mindset, conversation, relationship, and self-achievement.

As a result,
I hence choose to dance with my own soul before I can manage my self-center ego.
It has been a long way or fight to go as I have to act like a hermit or stoic to refrain from social life, romantic trap, unconscious choices, and unrealistic expectation.

Most of time, I choose to dance with my own soul as I absorb myself in my reading and writing.

It’s my soul dance when I realize that I create what I am experiencing without expecting something better or someone better to save me. I am my life own creator.

It’s my soul dance when I admit that I am not perfect and more acceptable to my own limitation, weakness, and flaw.

It’s my soul dance when I know that life is too short to fear, worry, complain, or searching for better.

I like to dance but most of time, I need to dance alone without any one to bother or influence me.

I am dreaming that some day, I will be a real good dancer.

I know before I can dance well with my selfish-ego, I can’t find any good partner for a good dance.

I dare not invite any partner to dance with me before I have equipped myself well with good mind, spirits, and brain for a good dance.

I need to wait, to nourish, to prepare for the real dance…

Before that, I choose to be alone, dance alone……………………