Why it’s so unbearable?
It’s because of my irritation from others?
Nope
It’s because I can’t be my own friend and I can’t enjoy my own company.
I want to get rid of my own negative.
I want to change and fall in love with myself again.

I forget how to encourage myself but keep being my own enemy.
What’s the most poisonous is not the critic for others but the self-critic.
I can’t give myself nurturing messages of encouragement, and be my best friend or lover.

And crying for help..
A kind of begging for comfort and warmth..

I need a warm comfort, hug, and kiss from you……….