The agitation, the restlessness, the feeling of loss with me for the last few days, all because of the collective family karmic connection with you, a child couldn’t wait to be born!

I am so sorry I couldn’t call you my nephew!  I am so sorry our family coexisting relationship did not apply to this life time!  I know how much your parents want you, waiting for you and the deep sorrow of not being able to meet you at all!

The news came on this storming night, the rain drop was like the tears that float in my heart, the howling wind was like my physical weeping!

I cried for our family loss, I cried for my parents’ unvoiced sorrow, I cried for your parents’ unspeakable grief!

Written on June 22, 2011 midnight