Dear 子建大哥, First of all, I would like to appreciate your thoughful understanding of my concept behind words. I did struggle between the ideals and reality, dreams and reality, inner voice and outer recognition and even self-satisfation or others' demands or requests. Actually, I am old enough to make the choices which satisfy myself instead of appealing to others' expectations. Lots of people might question me for the reason why I didn't spend more time doing research or writing something more productive. Hahaha, honestly speaking, I used to suffer and struggle a lot from the continuous questions and criticism of mine quite often. Lately, I start to appreciate my crazy thoughts since I regard them as the precious and beautiful gifts I present to myself at the age of 34. I know if I don't note down or record those silly thoughts, those previous and precious thoughts of mine at the age of 34 will just be gone with the wind as time goes by. I have achieved lots of goals what others set for me or I set for myself, and it is high time for me to enjoy myself during the process of accomplishing something, satisfying some expectation or finishing some tasks in my own pace, manners, speed or space. I am glad and proud to say what I have done is my choices and my decisions without regrets. I just follow the call of my inner voice and take the responsibility for what I have done while enjoying myself in the process. Haha, something can wait, but some moments can't. Just like the current moment, I feel like typing this long passage to show my highest gratitude toward you, 子建大哥, that is because I regard it as "some moments can't wait." I can't wait to show my thankfulness toward your total understanding and thoughtful encouragement. Thanks again. Wish you a great day. Helen |