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| 【書摘】在少女們身旁—舒適地麻木 (Comfortably Numb) 2 C’est que, pas plus que ce n’est le désir de devenir célèbre, mais l’habitude d’être laborieux, qui nous permet de produire une oeuvre, ce n’est l’allégresse du moment présent, mais les sages réflexions du passé, qui nous aident à préserver le futur. Or, si déjà arrivant à Rivebelle, j’avais jeté loin de moi ces béquilles du raisonnement, du contrôle de soi-même qui aident notre infirmité à suivre le droit chemin, et me trouvais en proie à une sorte d’ataxie morale, l’alcool, en tendant exceptionnellement mes nerfs, avait donné aux minutes actuelles, une qualité, un charme, qui n’avaient pas eu pour effet de me rendre plus apte ni même plus résolu à les défendre... (l’édition Gallimard, Paris, 1946-47) 這是因為，使我們得以創作出一部作品的，並不是要成名成家的欲望，而是勤奮的習慣；幫助我們保護未來的，並不是眼前的歡愉，而是對往昔智睿的思考。幫助我們殘廢的頭腦走正路的，是理智思考和自我控制這一副拐杖。然而，如果我抵達里夫貝爾時，早已把這副拐杖扔得遠遠地，破例地放鬆我的神經，處於任憑精神失調、酒精肆虐的狀態中，就等於我賦予當前的每一分鐘以品質和魅力。其結果是既不能使我更能夠，也不能使我更有決心去保護這每一分鐘。 (p.417 追憶似水年華 II 在少女們身旁 聯經版 1992) 因為，正如要能寫出一部作品，靠的並不是揚名天下的願望，而是習慣成自然的勤奮努力。真正能幫助我們創造未來的，並不是眼前一時的歡悅，而是對過去冷靜的思考。然而，如果說剛到里弗貝爾那時候，我就已經把理智和自控這兩根能幫我這病殘之軀走在正道上的拐杖扔得遠遠的，已經在受一種精神上的失調的折磨，那麼此刻，酒精的作用在把周身神經變得異樣繃緊的同時，使眼前的分分秒秒都變得美妙而富有魅力，但我卻並不因此變得更有能力或更有決心去衛護它們… (p.195 追尋逝去的時光 II 在少女花影下 第二部 上海譯文版 周克希譯 2004) For just as it is not the desire to become famous but the habit of being laborious that enables us to produce a finished work, so it is not the activity of the present moment but wise reflexions from the past that help us to safeguard the future. But if already, before this point, on my arrival at Rivebelle, I had flung irretrievably away from me those crutches of reason and self-control which help our infirmity to follow the right road, if I now found myself the victim of a sort of moral ataxy, the alcohol that I had drunk, by unduly straining my nerves, gave to the minutes as they came a quality, a charm which did not have the result of leaving me more ready, or indeed more resolute to inhibit them, prevent their coming… (Translated by C. K. Scott Moncrieff) Just as it is not the wish to be famous, but a habit of hard work, that may make a creative artist of us, so it is not the joy we take in the present, but sober reflection on the past, that may enable us to safeguard the future. In my own case, not only had 1 begun the evening at Rivebelle by throwing away my crutches of rationality and self-discipline, which help us in our infirmity to walk a straight path, and had been afflicted thereby by a sort of moral ataxia, but then the alcohol, with its heightened effect on the nerves, had filled the present minutes with a quality and a charm whose effect had not been to make me more able, or even more willing, to defend myself against them… (Translated by James Grieve) |
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