Resentment-hate my siblings' endless mistakes.
-abominate what confine my big dream.
-distest other's irresponsible debt.

Bitterness-feel suffer for my weakness to overcome these negative
emotion.
-get assailed by loneliness.
-endure the loss of power and ability to better the lives
of my families.
-bear the curse on myself.

Those calamitous feelings run so deep that falling asleep has become an arduous process to me.
I need to find solustion to this problem.
I need to better my sleeping.
I need to fall asleep as soon as possible.

I realize as long as I hold thess disastrous feeling, I am feeling that hurt again and again and it keeps me from living, growing and understanding. It puts a damper on my life. It saps my energy, clouds my perceptions and put damage on my physical condition.

I findthat the contraction of my heart that comes about because of terror, resentment, of holding grudges, of the inability to let go of a ‘wrong’ is inexplicably painful. And not only that, it is spiritually debilitating, because all of those traits and characteristics and potentials that I have within me: openness to others; self-confidence; the ability to reach out, maintaining a connection with myself at my deepest level, with other people at their essence, with this wonderful world, all those traits, the best parts of my nature, that spirituality at its best helps me to cultivate; all of those are crippled by my negative feeling.

At last, I decide and choose to begin the prayer with positive self-talk. “I am a loving, giving, caring person.” “
What (fill in the name of the person who harmed you) did has no reflection on who I am, what I am about and what I have to offer.” “I will remain relaxed and focused on who I am, what I am about and what I have to offer.”
“I will effortlessly and easily resist all temptation to hold onto fear, bitterness and resentment toward (fill in the person’s name).”

Guess what, it really works ...........sometimes!