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Be far away I feel more comfortable with distant relationship. No matter they are romantic, friendship-like, or familial, the gap on distant relationships is a protection from scorn, fight, frustration, and disappointment deriving from too familiar relation. Being away from home, I certainly get rid of certain worries and burdens but the lack of close blood relationship worsens my sense of insecurity, inferiority, and loneliness. Furthermore, in such a carefree spirit without trivia from other families, I definitely gain much health and happiness, but I become less aware of the coming crisis from my beloved families. Every day, on my way out of work back home, I am thinking which would be better to go to my small home with my kids and husband only or home with parents or more relatives? It has been a big question all the time in my life but now I still have no idea about which is the better choice. Being away from social life, I leave more time for myself and my families but I l simultaneously lose my social capital. I assume that I can get more peace without the attack from gossip but I am inevitably doubted and peeped by people who don’t know me. In my reclusive life, I become more inspired by my reading and writing but become awkward with people. For me, I am convinced that life is much more about death and life than people and people for I can express my feelings and thoughts more easily through my writing and reading than confiding to any one. However, I am still not certain what the better choice is for me |
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