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啊唷我的媽！
臉書今晨披露了我在部落格上所發表的最早期照片與文章。
呵呵...如今我早已不再自卑於那遲早要腐朽歸零的外表，反而深深感謝上主所創造並賜我的一雙足、一對胸。
倒是從小，我個性上有許多不完美的地方，那則不能怪罪於上帝。即令那些問題是來自我的問題家庭，它們仍然是我自己的責任！
還在(基督裡)努力中...
 【以上補記於2017年九月三日】
 我這人從小就很自卑。 當初和老公密切交往時，我們都已二十出頭； 我們很相愛，而且都以為可以彼此相守了。
有一次，我掙扎著一種迫切感，想要讓他知道我這人的缺陷與弱點。記得，當時我帶著滿懷的羞慚與不安，老老實實地告訴他說，我不喜歡自己的腳和胸部。 輪到他了。 只見他支吾了好一陣子、欲言又止，最後不痛不養地說：「嗯，我也不喜歡我的腳...我有香港腳。」
回想起來，挺可笑，也很悲哀... 那時候，我老公不是基督徒。
而我，身為一個耶穌的門徒，何竟一心記掛自己的外表形象，卻未向男友堅定表白信仰、並討論那些更重要的人格品質等內在生命的話題？
I used to carry a heavy sense of inferiority toward myself ever since I was a very little girl. My hubby and I were both at our twenties when I dated him. We were in love, and thought we could be with each other forever. One day, I struggled a strong feeling of letting him know some of my weakness. I remember I finally uttered, with shame, unease, but honesty, "I don't like my feet and my breasts."
I guess it was then his turn, for after pausing a few seconds, I heard him responding, with a tone of no expression. "Me too, I don't like my feet. " he said, " I've got the Athlete's Foot." It seems funny now, yet I am deeply saddened as I recall. Being a Christian, why had I been so preoccupied by my own appearance and never insisted on sharing my faith for Jesus Christ and never discussed those of true value such as character, integrity, quality of inner life...with my not-Christian-yet boyfriend? (By Julia Chou)
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