Hi, my friend

 My complicated emotions give me a headache but also give me a blessing. Tears are like the waterfall falling on my face; however, I appreciate those unresisting falling tears. That is because I know “Disappointment is another kind of his appointment” which will be a great opportunity for me to experience different state of minds and learn some unexpected lessons in life.

  I always believe “Everything happens happens with a reason.” As for me, the REASON may not be “Reasonable” but I should still assume it is “Acceptable”. After all, that is life. The meaning of life—to suffer, to endure, to learn, to experience, to fight, to accept, to see, to taste, to feel, to smell, to listen, to pick it up, to put it down, to grow, to love, to smile, to appreciate, to meet, to dream, to remember, to forget, to fulfill, to destroy, to try, or to do nothing. I know I might get hurt or hurt others on the journey of life, I might meet unexpected problems, I might fight against inevitable challenges, I might learn to be loved or be brave to love—because I know the ending of the journey is happy and enormous power of love is the answer and solution toward all kinds of questions and problems. I also believe that being loved or loving is an amazing power which is born with and learn to apply wisely or properly.

 I have suffered from lots of unexpected incidents within a long day---- this incredible Tuesday. I cried, I shouted, I screamed, I started self-pity, I smiled, I laughed, I stood, I sat, I lied, I lay, I bent, I frown, I pretended to be serious, I pretended nothing wrong, I made a fake smile, I was mad, I was worried, I had no ideas, I tried to do something, I talked to myself, I communicated with those important persons in my life, I discussed, I listened, I kept silent, I was bothered, I relived, I questioned myself, I asked lots of questions, I found some answers, I dealt with something, I shared my opinions, I proposed some suggestions, I persuaded, I believed, I thought negatively, I thought positively, I wondered, I argued, I attacked, I was hurt, I recovered, I discovered, I gave in, I picked it up, I put it down, I complained, I was puzzled, I was confused, I felt hopeless, I felt hopeful, I started to expect something good, I tried to remember, I tried to forget, I got involved, I scarified, I ran away, I wrote down my thoughts, I cleared my thoughts, I made a decision, and I reflected what I have done and what I have been through before I go to bed.

   I couldn’t believe that I have been through those uncountable, complicated but precious and valuable emotions in such short time. I take those changeable emotions as my treasures which let me healthier and stronger and that is the reason why I say “Sometimes our families teach us, and sometimes our families hurt us.” There is a nice quote about family which is quite interesting and inspiring. “If the family were a fruit, it would be an orange, a circle of sections, held together but separable - each segment distinct. ~Letty Cottin Pogrebin. As for me, if the family were a fruit, it would be a large watermelon which has a smooth exterior rind (green and yellow) and a juicy, sweet, usually red or yellow interior flesh with lots of seeds of hopes inside. It is popular with its quantity of water which everyone can’t live without. The color of interior flesh is as red as everyone’s blood which is the fountain of one’s passion and love. The color of interior flesh is as yellow as a shinny sunflower with a smile which is the source of one’s energy and braveness. The numerous and well-protected seeds inside imply that separated individuals (children) with their own promising and hopeful lives—each seed is a hope, each seed carries its mission, each seed takes its responsibility. As for the smooth exterior rind protect the interior flesh and seeds from getting hurt and provide the interior flesh and seeds a comfortable and safe learning and growing environment. The sweet flavor means that every industrious devotion will result in a sweet and promising harvest.

  Wow, time flies.  I have to stop right now, right here. Share you with several nice quotes about family. I think I won’t stop paying forward my love and my concerns to every member in my family. No matter what they have done and how terrible I have been suffered. I decide to forgive and forget. I choose to remember those wonderful memories and sweet interactions we have been through together. I choose to remember those positive and successful communications we have been through together. I choose to remember those difficulties and challenges we have fought against together. Just let the wind blow those unpleasant incidents away. Just let the tears shed those unhappy memories away. Just let the power of love expel those troubles and problems away. I will win at last because I want to be happy again right now. Happiness is my way all the time.

Good luck.

Helen with a relived smile

1.         Every single person has capabilities, abilities and gifts. Living a good life depends on whether those capabilities can be used, abilities expressed and gifts given. If they are, the person will be valued, feel powerful and well-connected to the people around them. And the community around the person will be more powerful because of the contribution the person is making. (from Building Communities From the Inside Out: A Path Toward Finding and Mobilizing a Community's Assets)

2.         Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way. - ~~~opening line from Anna Karenina~~~ Leo Tolstoy:

3.         Home is the place where boys and girls first learn how to limit their wishes, abide by rules, and consider the rights and needs of others.Theodore Hesburgh:

4.         The most important thing a father can do for his children is to love their mother.~Thomas Moore

5.         Family life is full of major and minor crises -- the ups and downs of health, success and failure in career, marriage, and divorce -- and all kinds of characters. It is tied to places and events and histories. With all of these felt details, life etches itself into memory and personality. It's difficult to imagine anything more nourishing to the soul.

6.         Your family and your love must be cultivated like a garden. Time, effort, and imagination must be summoned constantly to keep any relationship flourishing and growing. --Jim Rohn