So, your Mom was in her late 50's when she left you, what was the final cause of death?

I lost my Dad just a few months earlier than you, Dad had a sudden stroke, he passed away 100 hours later, I was with him and walked through the final journey of his life, I know how that feel.

I love my Dad so much, I had dreams with him every night for about 45 days, I kept his ashes in my apartment for the whole time.

I still miss him, but I have liberated him into the Sunshine, the breeze, the water and the mother earth. He is with me every where I go.

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best wishes to your Mom