Saturday, 23 July
2011
Every
day regarding the day which takes a drug is weary thoroughly
對於每天吃藥的日子徹底地厭倦了
Loses
sleep the nightmare to awaken every night does not have the physical strength
all day long in the home
夜夜失眠 惡夢驚醒 沒有體力
終日在家中
The
appetite do not raise abstractness feeling
毫無食慾 更別提抽象性的感受
Where
has the habitat which may let me breathe?
哪兒有可以讓我呼吸的棲息地?
Really
good wanted to give up but only letting me support the power from
真的好想放棄了 但唯一讓我支撐地動力來自於
Dear
ones
親情
I
did not know that also how long can support
我不知道還能夠支撐多久
Eats
these many medicine in vivo liver to be unable metabolism
吃這麼多藥 體內肝臟無法代謝
Liked
on the attractive my face a pile being bewildered steadily
非常愛漂亮的我 臉上長了一堆莫名其妙的
The
biography first time dislikes my this appearance thoroughly
生平第一次徹底地討厭我這張外貌
Loathes
the inexplicable sound
厭惡莫名的聲響
Peaceful
and dark is the quarter which I most think
安靜與黑暗 是我最想住的處所
Where
if has the haunted house I to want to move but actually toward that
如果哪兒有鬼屋 我倒想往那搬
I
did not like the crowd falling in love lonely
我不喜歡人群 愛上了孤獨
Yes
I in heart's dark side exposed thoroughly in tonight
是的 在今夜我心中的黑暗面徹底地展露了
The
reason stems from bordering on my critical line
原因出自於 瀕臨我的臨界線
Will
divulge resorts to will be I is only at present in the writing can do
將宣洩訴諸于文字 是我目前唯一所能夠做的
The
sleeping pill with led the dormancy medicinal preparation to be already unable
to let my normal person's life
安眠藥與導眠劑 已經無法讓我過著正常人般的生活
One
day of dose achieves six
一天藥量達到六顆
I
can realize by oneself really I have passed away mother
我實在能夠親身體會到我已過世的媽咪
How
took a drug has eaten 30 year taste is
吃藥吃了30年的滋味是如何
The
specific weight melancholia this pathology name let my life transfer greatly
curved
重度憂鬱症 這病理名稱讓我的人生轉了個大彎
Doctor
in charge said my intelligence quotient superelevation in the average man
主治醫師說我的智商超高於常人
Let
me lose many year love
讓我失去多年的愛情
The
thorn is overspreading each night of sleep
荊棘鋪滿著每夜的睡眠
I
am love in the my life first man
我是將愛情把在我人生第一位的男人
Reckless
is I throughout regarding love principle
不顧一切是我始終對於愛情的原則
The
wonderful female has told me the human is will change
奇女子告訴過我 人是會改變的
These
words not wrong
這句話沒錯
But
I am pursuing eternal love
但是 我追求著永恆地愛情
Obviously
I was defeated
顯而易見地 我失敗了
After
the defeat, recently I explore myself gradually
失敗之後 近來我逐漸探索自己
Discovered
that I start not to be able to like the opposite sex
發現我開始不會喜歡異性
But
I will not like the homogeneity
但 我也不會喜歡同性
A
spot lies in me strangely regarding the sexual affection not in the least
desire
怪異地一點在於 我對於性愛
毫無慾望
Whether
this does mean I have fallen in love lonelily truly
這是否意味著 我真正愛上了孤單
I
start to discover itself…Satirizes very much
我開始發現自己...很諷刺
Is
pursuing eternal love throughout
始終追求著永恆地愛情
Clearly
knows in the world not eternal the thing
明知道世界上沒有永恆地事物
Whether
to mean
是否意味著
My
own existence or not importance does not exist
我自身存在與否的重要性不存在
Was
pondering all day long anything is real
終日思考著 什麼是 真實
After
getting out of bed, looks at the clock 1:00 pm
起床之後 看時鐘 下午一點
Thinking
想想
Bustles
about the human who pursues oneself desire to be real?
忙碌追求自己慾望的人 真實嗎?
Mediocre
one days of another day-long person has been being real?
庸碌過著一天又一天的人
真實嗎?
I
eat up food to be real?
我吃下食物 真實嗎?
Can
rely any was confirming that all these are real not empty
能夠倚賴著什麼證實這一切是
真實不虛
If
this world does not exist eternal
倘若這世界不存在永恆地
Whether
that authentic another one side should be essential
那真實性的另一側是否就應是本質性
Essential
is humanity's common sense of fear origin
本質性是人類共同的恐懼感來源
Why
為何
Unknown
feeling
未知感
But
my not frightened curiosity makes to cause to so wants to spy on it
但我並不恐懼 好奇心使然
想窺探它
Some
school of thought philosopher thought that this world all things all are
composed of the digit
某學派哲學家 認為 這世界一切事物都皆由數字所組成
I
slightly feel the approval
我略感認同
Why
為何
probability
機率
How
does the digit suspend is 0 to 9
數字怎麼擺都是0至9
Also
believe the banker credit card cash card etc.
還會去相信銀行家 信用卡
現金卡 等等..
The
dividend points should not be stupid
紅利點數 別蠢了
Digit
0 to 9
數字0至9
But
how is to suspend lets the humanity be willing to enjoy that vanity
只不過是如何擺得讓人類甘願去享受那份虛榮心
Real
not empty?
真實不虛?
The
humanity only needs the protein, the mineral substance and the moisture
content, can the survival
人類只需要蛋白質、礦物質與水分,就能夠存活
Nature
law right?
大自然定律 是嗎?
Some
habits surely have the exception
有常態就必定有例外
Jumps
a topic my ponder pattern already custom caper type
跳個話題 我的思考模式已習慣跳躍式
My
primary affection lets me not study gets over an emotion
我的初次戀情 讓我還沒有學習到
釋懷
Because
the object is my mother
因為 對象是我的媽咪
The
my first section of affection lets me study freely
我的第一段戀情 讓我學習到自由
The
my second section of affection lets me study forgiveness
我的第二段戀情 讓我學習到寬恕
The
pardoned crime discusses the viewpoint cuts into
原罪論的觀點切入
My
existence real not empty?
我的存在 真實不虛?
The
logic pondered result
邏輯性去思考的結果
The
answer is the denial
答案是否定
Why
為何
Because
if the pardoned crime accomplishes following love the fruit
倘若原罪的因 造就後續愛情的果
The
causal relation is untenable
因果關係並不成立
Jumps
a topic
跳個話題
Today
watched the Western black-and-white movie
今日看了部 西方黑白電影
A
wealthy family female has been only then handsome with a youth marries
一位富家女已與一位青年才俊結婚
Accidentally
meets another youth
偶然間遇上另一位青年
This
youth falls in love with this wealthy family female to want to lead her to
elope goes
這位青年愛上這位富家女
想帶著她私奔而去
It
can be imagined encounters resists
可想而知 遭到拒絕
The
youth said:
You
not long after have observed your father when the breakfast,
will
not express gratitude with your mother thanks you.
青年說:妳曾幾何時觀察過妳的父親在早餐時,已不會與妳母親道聲謝謝妳
The
end wealthy family females elope with this youth go
劇終 富家女與此青年私奔而去
The
very tasteless obsolete movie but sends the person province to think
挺乏味的老舊電影 但發人省思
Would
rather has been tracking down the innermost feelings with its irrevocable
tasteless day the hope
與其過著一成不變的乏味日子
倒不如追尋內心的渴望
In
my rest of the year said that the sentence truth I do not think the live long
time
在我有生之年 說句實話
我並不想活久
Perhaps
30 year old of foot
也許30歲 足夠了
I
will decide will be complete a story to write the completely human nature for
the bottom each kind of appearance
我定會完全一本 已故事為底
寫盡人性的各種面貌
The
human lives in this world the minutes and seconds does not stop does is
choosing
The
selectivity occupied each person to live majority of
選擇性佔據了每個人 生活中的絕大部分
What
satirizes is the decision which chooses by own will holds how many?
諷刺的是 由自己意志所選擇的決定
佔有多少呢?
Permanent
love does not need to construct under any support
永恆性的愛情 不需要建構在任何支架之下
The
social value will thoroughly only destroy the permanent love
社會價值只會徹底地毀滅永恆性的愛情
But
I am still pursuing, even if it does not exist
但 我依然追求著 即使它不存在
Jumps
again a topic
再跳個話題
I
was always suspecting the knowledge origin is whether correct
我始終懷疑著知識的來源是否正確
Pondered
all day long custom
終日思考的習慣
The
logic is discussing the causal relation throughout
邏輯性始終在探討著因果關係
Aptness?
適當性呢?
Whether
the counter-logical existence's inevitability should inspect pondered accuracy
反邏輯性存在的必然性是否應該檢視著思考的正確性
After
breaking through logical non-rational product
突破邏輯性之後的非理性產物
Has
pulled back the subject
拉回了正題
The
humanity is the non-rational animal is camouflaging the rational human nature
人類是非理性的動物偽裝著理性的人性
Lies
in me is also the humanity laughably
可笑在於 我也是人類
besides
況且
I
did not think that I am the humanity
我不認為我是人類
Jumps
again a topic
再跳個話題
Perhaps
the war leaves the life to be remote in peace humanity
戰爭或許離生活在和平的人類
非常遙遠
But
the war minutes and seconds are carrying on fact
但 事實上戰爭分秒在進行著
This
means that the truth is the humanity is the animal which the affection
slaughters
這意味著真相是 人類是喜愛殺戮的動物
on
the contrary
反之
Other
animals slaughterare to continue their next generation
其他動物們 殺戮是為了延續自己的下一代
The
ugly human goal lies in the concrete application and the abstraction value
醜陋的人類 目的在於具體化與抽象化的價值
Jumps
a topic I to like the caper-like ponder pattern again
再跳個話題 我非常喜愛跳躍式的思考模式
Why
does the my first girlfriend teach me to be free; Good she
我第一任女友 教會我自由為何;善良的她
Why
does the my second girlfriend teach me to forgive; Evil she
我第二任女友 教會我寬恕為何;邪惡的她
The
interesting place lies in that me own?
有意思之處在於 那我自身呢?
Perhaps
has the multiple personalities with me to have the relations
或許與我有多重人格有關係
I
can be together with all kinds of person
我能夠與各式各樣的人相處
Understands
each person's demand
懂得每個人的需求
No
matter is on the material or the mind
不論是物質上抑或心靈上
Jumps
again a topic
再跳個話題
I
have been weary of the long conversation
我厭倦了冗長的談話
Because
I only am want to test the human nature
因為我只是想測試人性
Very
interesting
挺有趣地
Thank
you for every good friends
謝謝各位好友