成為母親， 是生命施於我最感激的禮物。

很小的時候，我曾經以為身邊的人和事的存在，都是一場為我演出的戲。我一離場的話，所有的“演員”，都會離開舞台到後場休息。這荒謬的想法，當然沒有持續太久。但是，即使後來年齡漸長，大半還是只為自己而活的：地球繞著我轉，我的喜·怒·哀·樂，是宇宙的中心···一直到我成為一個母親。當上母親是天施的禮物，讓我才懂得無私的愛，無條件的寬恕，無期待的感激。我真心的喜悅，只是因為我很簡單得知道，我孩子們是快樂的！

今天是復活節前的週六，我女兒在許多年前的復活節前的週六夜出生。我想利用今天當一個開端，用孩子們相簿裡的照片，為他們的成長在我的生命中留下的痕跡做記錄。相簿裡的日期及字句是中文，他們多半看不懂。現在開始中英夾雜的寫，是我自己的回憶，也是他們可以懂得的記錄。第一篇，給女兒，亦心！！

The greatest gift I have ever received in life is "Being a Mother". At a very young age, I used to question the true existence of reality I lived in and suspected everything I saw and felt were parts of a drama play for me. I imagined, when I walked away from every happening, everyone would simply retreat to the backstage, taking breaks from their assigned roles. As I was growing up, that silly idea did not last of course, though I remained connected much just to myself. My own happiness, sadness, pride, and defeat were the universe of my self-centered world, but that all changed on the day when I became a mother.

Motherhood is a heavenly gift that taught me how to love unconditionally, to forgive without questioning, and to live in gratitude without expectation. My happiness is true to the core when I know my children are happy.

Today is the Saturday of Easter weekend. Many many years ago, I became a mother when my daughter was born on the night before the Easter Sunday. So, I want to start a photo journal today, recounting their lives in mine and recording them as time moves on. This first one is for Shin, my daughter.

十月大的心心在俄亥俄州，哥倫布市

Shin was 10-month-old. My handwriting reads: "When not in tears, you always filled the days with sparkles-busy smiling, crawling, standing, and opening the curtain to allow in the sunshine."  This was at our home in Columbus, Ohio. We lived in an apartment complex. Life was calm but, perhaps, boring at times because I was trying to finish my master's thesis besides learning "to be a mother". You were sensitive, eager to please, and loved to be held, and I always felt I did not hold you enough. But, you loved me with your entire mind. I thank you.

一歲生日

One-year-old birthday!! There was no fancy birthday party but only a semi-successful homemade birthday cake. We decorated the apartment inside and out nonetheless, and, for that, we actually received a warning from the apartment manager. The excitement of celebration started many days before, and we may have exhausted you by keeping changing outfits on you for photo shots. My handwriting note by the photo said: "Shin, life is filled with colorful balloons in the air. But, you must look up to see them. Shin, you are the little fairy on the balloon in my sky, descending to color our life ."

十四個月大，腳步穩當，開始一起搜索未來

Then, she walked and ran, and pointed to a future that we did not know what would become but we were happy to be hand in hand side by side...