Asian-A, my blogging friend asked me "What happen to you?" a while ago.  I don't quite understand her question.  She might expect me to write more blog for her to read or be curious about my current situation after reading my blog. All my answer is that I am semi retired due to the down turn of US economy, and I am fine.  There is a popular Chinese saying: if your are in 60s then you only live year by year, in 70s then you live month by month, and in 80s then you live day by day.  I am two years away from the above status.

If the question change to "What happened to you?", then I bet most my blog readers don't quite understand my PTSD situation.  They will say no big deal to be a solider and to be in a cell for a month.  If I never came out of Taiwan, I will say they are right, it's no big deal in the Taiwanese totalitarian culture in 70's.  But after I came to here and read the information of other sides , I gradually felt I was betrayed by my classmates, 2nd generation of Chiang's ruling class, and abused by the authorities. I felt very angry and it hurt myself and people around me.  That was the cause of my PTSD.  It's still a scar inside me and sometimes wakes me up in the middle of the night.

I think I control it very well now. I do not try to hurt myself nor to others.  If I think the guy I don't like, I just stay away from him.  I am quite amazed that so many people in my church act worse than secullar people, so I stay away from them. They are just like little monks (or old Chiang), read the Bible script without carrying it out.

Currently my daughter will get into UC Berkeley this coming fall really lightens me up.  But the bad thing is that I am still trying very hard to make money without much success.