Please don't give up. You are on my mind and in my prayers everyday.
I know that no one knows, no one can image the pain and suffering you endure everyday. I wish I could do something...
May God;s word comfort you.
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... yet because of the man's boldness he will get up and give him as much as he needs. So I say to you: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened. “ --- Luke 11 : 8-10