我嘗試著瞭解他是什麼樣的人，為什麼他那麼自在、堅持的活著，而我卻不行； 

我嘗試著體會他在那樣的執著之間，什麼捨去了，然後又獲得了....

我只能沈醉他的曲，享受他的狂，敬佩他的才華，碰觸他的天賦； 

活著的凡人，有的祇是遠觀臆想的權力；而過去的智者，卻留下了後人碰也碰不到的天際遠霞。 

敬我這段日子狂追的Carlos Kleiber

 Carlos Kleiber ，1930年出生於德國，但成長於阿根廷，值是之故，他於日耳曼的精準之外，又加上南美的熱情奔放，使他成為古往今來最令人瘋狂的指揮大師。

俗話說「男人不壞，女人不愛」 ，而音樂家不怪，就似乎失去了神秘感，而不那麼令人崇拜。而kleiber的個性脾氣更是千裡挑一的古怪，例如：他的一位朋友寫信告訴他想看樂團排練，Kleiber就寫一封親筆回信說「好啊好啊，你是我的好朋友，你想要坐哪裡都可以，我會吩咐樂團經理好好招待你的，不過啊，你如果要來的話，我就不來啦！」。

Kleiber是一個很懶的指揮，他告訴Leonard Berstein：「我不喜歡指揮，只愛陽光、吃、喝和做愛。」，Herbert von Karajan亦形容他是只有在「冰箱空的時候才會出來工作」 ，更糟的是，Kleiber非常注重「感覺」 ，只要他「奇檬子」不對，不論是燈光太暗、樂團太混等等不一而足的理由都有可能使他把指揮棒一丟，拍拍屁股走人，留下全場錯愕的觀眾。儘管如此，每當有他的音樂會，仍會有數以兆計的AKDS患者冒著退票的危險漏夜排隊搶購。

懶歸懶，Kleiber指揮時是敬業到幾乎病態的地步，他不像Karajan錄製900多張CD，反而是一生反覆鑽研少數曲目，必定要將總譜及作曲家的意圖完全了解，再經由縝密精細的排練，他才會演出，所以他不出棒(指揮棒)則已，一出招就迷倒天下眾生。而最令人氣結的，也就是他凡事要求完美的個性，以他今日在古典樂壇的地位和今日錄音工程的進步，他竟然只錄下區區16張錄音，從1981年和東家PolyGram鬧翻之後，已經16年未有新作問世，而大部分的時間都躲在慕尼黑的家中看電視，只有偶爾在一些零星的CASE，如1989和1992年的維也納新年音樂會，才讓我們這群凡夫俗子得睹天顏。

到底Kleiber的魅力在哪裡，能讓世界各地樂迷被他吊的食味不知，甘心臣服在他的魔棒之下呢？有人用「輕」(Light)這個字來形容他的指揮藝術，很多不好的指揮家會把一首好聽的曲子弄得索然無味，而Kleiber指揮則會讓你覺得是在坐360度的雲霄飛車，不斷有新的刺激，感覺心臟都快彈出來一般，但卻又會大呼過癮；而他還有一項絕技就是渾然天成、豪放飄逸、自然率真的指揮姿勢，Karl Boehm指揮像是在畫一個無限迴圈，Richard Strauss懶到左手都插在口袋中，而Kleiber的身體會隨著音樂的律動而搖擺，豐富的表情足以得到奧斯卡金像獎，而他說盡無限事的雙手，我實在無法形容，也只有親眼看到才會相信。

我最愛的紐約時報悼辭 

New York Times

Austrian - Argentine Conductor Carlos Kleiber Dies

By REUTERS

Published: July 19, 2004 

Filed at 2:30 p.m. ET 

LJUBLJANA (Reuters) - Austrian-Argentine conductor Carlos Kleiber, dubbed one of the greatest and most difficult conductors of his time, died aged 74 last week, Austrian state television reported on Monday.

Kleiber was known as a brilliant conductor who could inspire an orchestra but also as an enfant terrible who would call off performances at the last minute.

Over the years his appearances became rarer and he last conducted in February 1999. He never granted interviews.

``Among music experts as well as the public, Kleiber was counted among the most important conductors of the 20th century,'' Austrian President Heinz Fischer said.

Kleiber, who lived in Munich, died on July 13 in Slovenia, the homeland of his mother and his late wife, Austrian television ORF quoted Slovenia's news agency STA as saying. He was buried on Saturday in the Slovenian village of Konjsic.

Kleiber was born on July 3, 1930, in Berlin, the son of Erich Kleiber, an Austrian-Argentine who conducted the premier of Alban Berg's opera Wozzeck in 1924 and directed some of the world's great orchestras.

The family moved to Argentina in 1935 to flee Nazi rule and Kleiber started his musical training in Buenos Aires in 1950.

He first conducted in 1952 in La Plata and a year later for the first time in Europe at Munich's Gaertnerplatztheater.

From 1968 to 1973 he worked under contract at the Bavarian State Opera. But he preferred to roam and increasingly made only individual guest appearances in places like Vienna, London and Milan.

His last public concert appearance was in February 1999 in Cagliari on the island of Sardinia, where he conducted Beethoven's Fourth and Seventh symphonies.