讓心裏沈澱了幾天再來寫這一篇
是對的

週三
和貝琪去看『２７件禮服的秘密』

好幾年沒進電影院了
自從Ｔａｎｉａ和Ｒｉｃｋ回美國之後
再沒有人引誘得動我
去電影院裏
讓視覺和聽覺一起被撼動

在網路上看到這部片子的廣告
然後去查了它的簡介
不知怎麼地
就好想去看它

只是
沒想到就這麼地
『好像看到了一個英文版的黃小蝶！！』
貝琪一出電影院就這麼笑著說出我隱忍在心裏不敢說的這句話

原來
不是只有我自己有這種感覺．．．．

電影看板的那行字讓我心驚膽跳
『這個女人一輩子都在讓別人幸福』

我站在看板前久久不能把視線從那行文字移開

我一直以為我做得還不夠多
如果
十三年前放下台中即將展開的新生活回家鄉過這種很壓抑的日子是一種奉獻
我以為我只是入門
佛心沒有孝心不足誠心不夠
所以
老天爺一直不肯給我和別人一樣的未來

比如說
給一個伴侶與我牽手

當然我也知道
命裏有沒有
和該不該求可以分開論說

也可能再把”有願才有緣”這句安慰人的話
拿來文章大作

可是
就著大螢幕看著自己
感受其實不怎麼優

儘管
電影結局是幸福美滿
可是
你一定不信
我因為心裏早放棄等候
所以對那童話般的一切嗤之以鼻就像看見小丑
笑一笑就好
明天還是得面對現實繼續這麼地往前走

我知道我很悲觀
但你不能怪我
因為我等了太久，始終沒有任何的徵象告訴我
未來會有屬於我的幸福在等我

唉～
看看就好
不過是部電影
和人生畢竟不同

就和看了本書一樣
闔上書之後
我還是我，地還是地，天空還是天空

也不用去算我穿過了幾件禮服
該我穿的，不會少

也不用去想未來是什麼
該來的會來該走的會走該留的會留

還是想想
錢要怎麼賺才夠
生活要怎麼過才算懂

謝謝貝琪陪我～

Like a star-Corinne  Bailey  Rae

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands,
Oh.. I do love you,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

You've got this look i can't describe,
You make me feel like I'm alive,
When everything else is a fade,
Without a doubt you're on my side,
Heaven has been away too long,
Can't find the words to write this song,
Oh.,..
Your love,

Still i wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

I have come to understand,
The way it is,
It's not a secret anymore,
'cause we've been through that before,
From tonight I know that you're the only one,
I've been confused and in the dark,
Now I understand,

I wonder why it is,
I don't argue like this,
With anyone but you,
I wonder why it is,
I wont let my guard down,
For anyone but you
We do it all the time,
Blowing out my mind,

Just like a star across my sky,
Just like an angel off the page,
You have appeared to my life,
Feel like I'll never be the same,
Just like a song in my heart,
Just like oil on my hands

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aMIaApFCLu8&feature=related
自己點過去聽吧~