say before it is too late, try to find someone real, instead of the poor pets...

some one who could know you, and share your life.

i just wonder that why you can take care of a lot of strays, and don't know how to take care of yourself? life is short, which everyone knows , but never take it serious and cherish it 

you already passed away,  or i should say waste too much of you life,

don't think that you are rich enough to waste your life like this always,

check your address book, just make a phone or write an email,

and change the scenery of your window of life....

good luck, you are a nice guy!