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| 2005/12/14 00:58:27瀏覽621｜回應0｜推薦2 | |
| Another old article from early 2005. People sometime take offense when they hear others comment that they have changed. Why? Is it a bad thing to change? Or life is all about changing. Sometime, the environment changes; sometime, the attitude changes. If you don't change, people would think you are stubborn, conservative, etc. If you keep changing, people would think you are lack of persistence. It has been a interesting but tough half year for me. The shut down of our kids day care center started to rock my regular life in September. What worse was the 2nd stroke of my father in December, which has been keeping him on the bed ever since. All the injuries I suffered from different sports seem to hit me all at the same time. My stomach is hurting 20 hours a day. Kids are growing up fast, and I am craving to spend more time with them each day. I am looking for some changes, looking for my direction. It takes time to adjust for the changes. I has been driving by myself a lot after the day care center was shut down. It has been tough since I can't commute with my family any more. It was a 30 miles drive. I missed talking to Tina, missed sound of our crying babies. And I missed the family time when the whole family went to Club Sports after work, swimming, taking shower before going home. Losing more than one hour of commute time together with Tina means losing the quality time with her every day. It had been a luxuary to be able to sit in the same car with your wife more than 30 minutes, and have quality conversation in the daily base. Our family life is still a mass since we can hardly find time to discuss our family plan. I has been trying to deal life the same way as before, but it doesn't work. After two weeks, I learnd to make the communication more effective, and finally we are making progress. One morning, I just turned on the radio listening to the Sports Radio's "Jim Rome's Show", one of the best products in sports talk. I am glad that I has the chance to listen to someone with the opposite personality and view things from totally different angles as me. It was a privilage. In my car, I also has a great time enjoy my CD collctions. The experience actually rekindles my love of music. The commute becomes less a problem to me. Just like the arguement I had when people questioned me whether spending more than two hours training in swimming everyday would impact my school work when I was at college. I am convinced, it is how you manage your life rather than how much time you have. Commute has rarely becomes a problem to me even our office is 30 miles away. We have a lot more time than we are aware of during our daily routines. Just need to learn how to managed our own schedule. I have been in Taiwan three times in four months. Each trip made me think more about my life. The first one was by myself in the new year eve. The second one was still by myself, in the Chinese New Year Eve. Late March, early April, I took Ethan with me, for tomb sweeping, and hope he could meet more people and mingle with his cousins. It worked out pretty well. Ethan now remember Taiwan, his cousins and other family and friends as well. He particular missed the day my junior high classmates get together playing valleyball while he was riding bicycle with the one who did not play. Ethan got the idea that Daddy has lots of friends, and we have lots of things in common. During that time, I didn't spend enough time with my father, but it was a good experience for Ethan. Friends and family, are something I cherish the most. I am lucky that I still have many friends who could connect well. Playing fantasy sports is keeping me busy, and learn a lot. Now, everyday in my drive to and back from work, I can either listen to the CD's or different radio programs. I have chance to heard many different stories, sports, bible, or just plain news. There are lots of good stuffs.. |
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