in the palm of the hand

of something beyond the mind ,

something

I will never fully comprehend ,

something

I will never completely understand

I am tiny , I am small

I am humble

and alone

with my thoughts

coming

to me ,

from out of nowhere

here ,

I see .................

me

I am just a one

in a great big world , perched

on the edge of an enormous sea , wide-eyed

and ready

to be swallowed whole

by this overwhelming experience

ohhh , I embrace what I can ,

but ...............

so much of this .......the game , the silliness .........

truthfully ,

is not for me

I don't know

how to play

I can't remember

the rules

I don't follow

the directions .......

I don't fit in

I don't belong

I don't have a place

I don't have a home

and that , my dear ,

is why

I can't find my way .............