it's so easy for me  ......

to forget

that I am living with

a chronic , autoimmune disorder ,

even though we've been parnters

for life

it's so easy for me to ignore

the little aches and pains

here and there

after dealing with

so many bigger aches and pains ,

here and there ..........

it's so easy for me

to not think about

how sick I have been

or could become again

when I simply feel

so

damn

good

but there are times ,

like now ,

when it stops me

in my tracks , with a loud

" hey , remember me ..........?"

and suddenly ,

whether I want to or not ,

whether it's convenient or not ,

whether I have the energy or will

or not ,

I have to acknowledge it , and say

" yeah , I remember you ............."

it's funny , but

they try to remind me that I have

a compromised immune system

when I feel absolutely healthy

and then ,

they try to remind me

how incredibly strong I am

when I'm exhausted , weak and ill

I don't know what to believe

I'm

just

me