|I kinda lost contact with Carla since we last met up in the early Oct. I thought I did sth offended her. But somehow I felt relived that those unwelcome things happened. I do not have any regrets. I felt "what a relieve" when she no longer wanna hang out with me. Am I sick? Or I just don't need the fake friendship? OK, I guess I still have to mention what bugs our relationship. -my refusal to her inquiry to taste what I was drinking. -my "no-big-deal" comment on her refusal to a man.
I asked her "what on earth she is looking for from a man?" These might be the barriers between us. But that's fine. I can live with that.