Hi there;
I guess you are in Minnesota, since all the photos you have posted herein which is so familiar to me. I had been lived in Minnesota for 7 years before I left. I have a special feel for that country.
I would said you have a heart of gold toward the life, the ideal life is hard to get it and be real.
However, life is full of dream more than you can imagine, dream come true only to who are brave enough to carry it out.
This is something I had it from a movie, but I forgot the movie name, while I was most desperate in my whole life.