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2007/02/27 16:53:27瀏覽126|回應2|推薦0 | |
Today was another bad day; I had lunch with friends, but we talked like being in different worlds. The situation was that we seemed to talk the same thing. but we thought more or less differently in fact. It's painful when it comes to that way. But that is not the main reason why I am feeling down right now. It's the way we were seen eating together and looked like we were plotting something against something or someone. You probably wouldn't understand what I am writing now. Anyway, my friends and I are a group of people always have our own ideas toward things. And this kind of character in a small society is really "a pain in the ass" to some big shots. Come to think of it, I would say yes it was a situation easily looked like that way. But we were not. So, perhaps, I should talk less and listen more. And when this happens, it will always make me miss Jane all the more. She will understand me better. But she has gone to America for two-year-term vacation. Therefore, here I am talking to a computer and any of you who reads my blog. Really sorry! I know I shouldn't say "I hate myself," but it did make me feel like that way anyway. Furthermore, an old friend of mine had told me once recently that I should stay as low key as I can. Because of Michael, I would be an target here for some time. No matter what I say or what I do would lead people think it is the same thing Michael will do. It's really unfair. But what does fair got to do with anything before? No, this world is never fair before. Why should I care that much? I really wish I could be somewhere else these coming four months. |
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