[最後] , 每當一看到或是一碰到有關"最後"的事情, 心情就少不免的有一點複雜, 有一點戚戚然的感覺。

這兩個字, 好像帶有一點"悲"的感覺,  好像之後就不會再遇到一樣。

譬如說"最後一次" , "最後一天", 甚至是"最後的人"等等。

(這讓我想到韓國的一部電視劇 "The last dance is with you" <最後之舞> )

今天, 我上了英文課的 最後一課 , 因為下個禮拜就要考試了。

其實課堂跟平日的都沒啥兩樣, 一樣的老師, 一樣的同學, 一樣的教室 ; 但是心裡就有一點說不出來的感傷, 但是又說不上是捨不得, 只是感覺這堂課很快就結束而已。

不過我也很高興這個英文課的老師跟同學都很好, 這讓我在上課的時候都不會有太大的壓力, 這應該是最大的得著吧!

"最後最後" - 不知道在我的人生裡會有多少個"最後", 不過也算不了, 因為實在有太多的"最後"要面對。

不過, 我最怕遇到的, 不是死前的最後一天。死, 是每個人都要經歷的事情, 只是每個人面臨死的時間都不同。

我最怕的, 其實是 "最後的愛" , 我怕有一天, 你會跟我說 : "今天是我愛你的最後一天" 或者是 " 這就是我能夠給你的 最後的愛"。

In fact, how long could be a true love last long? Lots of the people are looking for the answers of the same question. They get seeking, losing, and then seeking again. And this cycle like will not have a ENDING , it repeats and repeats again through the generations.

Sometimes, I really feel tired of it. I wanna stop at a harbour that could provide me a warm and safety place to stay, no matter how long, even though just for a while, I just wanta take a rest.  

However, where is that wonderful place? Some people might spend their whole life for this answer, and some of them might never get the "satisfactory" answer that they want .

Is it kind of silly of wasting time on this stupid question? Or does it really worthy to do so?

Maybe God knows ... and I think nobody can give an absolute answer.

Even if I know this might be the last minute that I could stay with you, it's by no means that you're everything for me at this precious moment.  

 

By myself.