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Where is God’s Perfection? (2)
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The doorbell rang like mad
RING! RING! RING!
It wouldn’t stop until I responded
I never open doors for strangers- so I hesitated
Finally, I decided to take my chances
It is Christmas Eve after all
Besides, I couldn’t stop the ringing by not doing anything
I believed that the presence of God in my house would protect us
To my surprise, what appeared before my eyes was a smiling face of my neighbors son Albert
His smile seemed to be contagious
Immediately I was filled with joy
He was holding a pitaya (fruit) and a pineapple
He said happily: "Auntie, this is for you."
"Merry Christmas To You!”

Holding the fruits as Christmas present,
Albert was surrounded by a beam of light
I thought I saw an angel without the wings
My tears rolled in my eyes
Because in that instant I saw the perfection of Gods love
He looked a little scared when he saw my tearing eyes
He thought he was freaking me out
"Im just giving you the pitaya and the pineapple." He explained.
"I wish you a Merry Christmas and good luck in the coming year."
He had no idea how amazed and comforted I was by his presence, especially because of the pitaya, which he brought me.

When the month of December 2019 came
I told myself it was my birthday month and I had to be happy
Also, I wanted to make a lot of people happy
The company I work for has entered its 25th anniversary this year
So the owner wanted to throw a big Christmas party to celebrate the occasion
All three officers were supposed to prepare programs
Unfortunately, this year we encountered a routine inspection from the government
So none of the offices had the time nor the energy to make the show

And I was preparing my show for my dancing studio’s annual Christmas Party
So when my office asked me to do a show
I agreed at once because I could raise the spirits of more than two hundred people!
I put a hold on everything so I could focus on this task
It is a lot of fun to work on the dance routine
I have successfully finished my performance on two Xmas parties
It just didnt occur to me that something unpleasant was going to happen afterward.

I found out that I could not keep my promise to a friend
Many factors halted my keeping promise
The whole thing made me sad
Its going to be hard to have a Merry Christmas this year
It is not possible to reverse my mood unless a miracle happens
I sighed and shook my head and helplessly to embrace this unexpected unpleasant Christmas holiday

One day when I drove back before Christmas
I saw the last pitaya left on the tree belong to my neighbor
They planted it only for a couple of years
Yet it bears a lot of fruits
Pitaya is popular and nutritious
It is relatively expensive compared to other fruits
So Im not surprised our neighbors didnt offer any to us.

Just when my mood was so low and down,
I tried to think of something that could change my mood.
Suddenly an idea flashed through my mind-
Perhaps miraculously, my neighbor will suddenly give me this last pitaya?
It wasn’t necessarily about the red dragon fruit,
more so that I want my neighbors to think that were friends
and that she was willing to share the last fruit with me to lift my spirits.

Oh, God! How could anyone have known?
A simple gesture changed my sadness to happiness.
Without thinking that my little wish could be granted…
How is it possible that this fruit would come to me?
While I sat depressed in the living room while watching TV on Christmas Eve,
Albert brought what I wished for!
I was thrilled that God had not forgotten me
and that he fulfilled my wish.

Two hours later my doorbell rang again
I thought to myself, “I guess Albert is back!”
Without hesitation, I opened the door
There he was with a big smile on his face again
He had a small bag with him
As soon as he saw me, he said he would sing for me
He didn’t have a guitar, but he took out a harmonica from his bag
He began to sing about the story of the birth of Jesus Christ

His speech is clear and fluent, and his voice is pleasant to hear
No one ever sings Christmas Carols at my door
Never once did I think of the honor of sharing a birthday with Jesus Christ
My old church taught me that it was important to remember the death of Christ, not the birth
My neighbor’s child made me feel proud to be born on Xmas day the first time in my life.
Watching his presentation, I was so moved and touched, and I could not help crying.
The tears wiped out the sadness I had right before Christmas and my birthday.
I saw the perfection of God because no one could have done it with such perfect timing!

I remembered a moving article from many years ago
**Where is Gods perfection? The father who had the imperfect kid asked the audience
Seeing no one could answer his question
The father told the story and answered:
Gods perfection is through the loving and caring of 18 young and perfect healthy kids
I too had asked myself during this time
Where is God’s perfection on me?
I never expected my question to be answered.

Who knows?
I received my answer on Chrismas Eve.
He made sure that I would be able to celebrate his and my birthday with joy,
He let me see HIS perfection
Through the act of the imperfect neighbors child

Albert has been diagnosed with bipolar disorder
Even though he looks bright and charming
The police had shown up at his house many times when he didn’t take his meditation
He would scream and cause a scene
He lost his marriage due to this illness
He often visited the mental hospital
Before coming to my door, he checked himself in the hospital for ten days
So he could give his mother a period of peace- what a lovely and considerate child.

Albert had no idea that he was playing the part of an angel on Christmas Eve
Just when I thought I wouldnt and couldnt have a Merry Christmas and a happy birthday
He brought me the biggest and the greatest gift
He helped to sweep away my sadness
He performed Gods perfection in HIS direction.
I would never imagine Gods perfection would be through this imperfect human being, would you?

**You can read this story on my previous blog-Where is Gods Perfection? (1) http://loveneverending.com/where-is-gods-perfection-1/

門鈴像瘋了一樣響
鈴!鈴!鈴!
鈴聲似乎在挑戰,除非我回應,不然不會止住
我從來不給陌生人開門——所以我猶豫了
最後,我投降了
畢竟是平安夜啊
此外,若不採取行動,鈴聲是不會停止的
在聖誕前夕
我相信上帝會保護我們
令我驚訝的是,出現在我眼前的是鄰居的兒子艾伯特的笑臉
他的微笑似乎具有感染力
我立刻充滿了喜悅
只看見他手上拿著一個火龍果,一個鳳梨
他開心說:“阿姨,這是給你的。”
“祝你聖誕快樂!”

拿著水果作為聖誕禮物,
艾伯特被一束光包圍著
我以為我看到了一個沒有翅膀的天使
我的淚水在眼裡打轉
因為在那一刻,我看到了上帝之愛的完美
當他看到我流淚的眼睛時,他看起來有點害怕
他以為他嚇到我了
“我只是給你火龍果和菠蘿。”他解釋說。
“祝你聖誕快樂,來年好運。”
他不知道他的出現帶給我極大的驚喜和安慰,尤其是他手上拿著的火龍果。

剛進入2019年的12月份
我告訴自己這是我生日的月份一定要開心
不單單是自己開心也要讓很多人開心
因為我工作的公司在今年已經進入了第25週年
所以老闆要大大的慶祝
本來三家分公司都要準備節目
不巧的是剛好今年碰到政府的盤檢
因此沒有人有心思準備節目

而我正在為舞蹈室的年度聖誕晚會準備表演
因此當我的辦公室要請我去表演助興時
便一口答應了,因為一下能讓兩百多個人開心何樂而不為呢
本來想要多寫文章而且把第二本書完稿也全部停擺
開心而且專心的做這些事情
不久成功地完成了我在兩個聖誕晚會上的表演
我只是沒想到開開心心的過完晩會迎面而來的是讓我非常不愉快的事情

我發現沒有辦法對一個朋友屨行承諾
許多因素使我無法信守諾言
整件事讓我很傷心
心想今年要過一個快樂的聖誕節及生日可不容易
除非奇蹟發生,否則我的情緒是不可能逆轉的
我嘆了口氣,搖了搖頭,無可奈何地準備接受了這個意外的不愉快的聖誕節。

就在聖誕前兩天我開車回來
看見隔壁樹上只剩下一顆火龍果
鄰居種的這個火龍果樹非常成功
所以連續幾個月來都不停的結果
火龍果很受歡迎而且營養豐富
在市場上賣火龍果蠻貴的
因此鄰居沒有送給我們我也不以為怪

只是當心情很頹廢的時候
就想到什麼事可以讓自己開心
忽然一個念頭閃過
也許有奇蹟,鄰居會忽然送給我這最後一個火龍果
倒不是想吃只是希望鄰居覺得我們不錯
樂意分享提升我的情緒

哦,上帝!怎麼會有人知道我期盼奇蹟呢?
因為讓我難過的事需要奇蹟才能扭轉它
但是我想神不可能會聽我這個小小的願望
沒有想到就在我百般無奈坐在客廳裡看著電視節目
火龍果竟然出現在我面前
艾伯特帶來了我所希望的東西!
我很高興上帝沒有忘記我
他滿足了我的願望

兩個小時後,門鈴又響了
我告訴自己,"我猜艾爾伯特回來了!”
我毫不猶豫地打開了門
他站在那裡臉上又是燦爛的笑容
他隨身帶著一個小包
他一看見我,就說他要為我唱歌
他沒有吉他,但他從包裡拿出了口琴
他開始唱耶穌基督誕生的故事

他說話清楚流利,歌聲悅耳
從來沒有人在我家門前唱聖誕頌歌
我從未想過與耶穌基督共享生日的榮耀
我的舊教會教導我,重要的是記住基督的死,而不是他的誕生
艾爾伯特讓我第一次感受到與耶蘇基督同日出生的榮耀
看著他又說又唱,我很感動,我忍不住哭了
淚水抹去了我在聖誕節和生日前夕的悲傷。
我看到了上帝的完美,因為沒有人能在如此完美的時間,在聖誕及我生曰前夕扭轉我的心態!

我記得很多年前的一篇感人的文章
**上帝的完美在哪裡?有不完美孩子的父親問聽眾
沒人能回答他的問題
這位父親講了這個故事,並自己回答:
上帝的完美展現在18個年輕健康孩子給不完美孩子的愛與關懷中
在這段時間我也問過自己
上帝對我的完美在哪裡?
我沒想到我的問題會得到回答。

誰知道,誰能猜到呢?
我在聖誕節前夕收到了答复。
祂確定我能夠即時分秒不差的快樂地可以慶祝祂和我的生日,
祂讓我看到了神的的完美
藉著這不完美的鄰居孩子艾伯特

艾伯特被診斷患有躁鬱症
儘管他看起來聰明迷人
警察多次出現在他家
當他不吃藥的時候他會大叫大鬧
他因為這場病而失去了婚姻
他經常去精神病院
在到我家之前,他讓自己在醫院裡住了十天
為了可以給他母親一段時間的安寧——多麼可愛體貼又可憐的孩子啊。

艾伯特不知道他在平安夜扮演的是天使的角色
就在我認為我不會也不能過一個快樂的聖誕節和生日的時候
他給我帶來了最大最好的禮物
他幫我掃清了悲傷與頹喪
帶給我享受的與主耶穌同生的喜樂
藉由上帝的指引這卑微的孩子完成了上帝的完美。
我永遠不會想像上帝的完美是通過這個不完美的人實現的,你想像得到嗎?

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