Received the text from JHX on 24 Oct at 18:11。

I replied on 28 Oct at 8:40 am as follows:

Hi J

Thank you for keeping us in your thought. It is very kind of you and I am grateful.

My everyday routine eg. cleaning, washing, cooking, shopping, blogging plus watching TV has kept me occupied all the day.

But my mind never goes without the guilt towards my daughters death, which would never be wiped out for the rest of my life. I should be guilty not having done well caring my own child during the crucial time as she stepped towards the adulthood.

I sensed that she was suffering in 2011 but I had not followed through closely subsequently for years due to the circumstances.

I understand that what on my mind is no interest to anyone else around me or not around, so there is no point for me to speak out to the friends. I only let it out here in response to your text for the sake of myself.

Apart from the guilt within, I am fine for now but not knowing how my life will go eventually. Life is no certainty for all but I guess that I am different from others now for the thought of it.

Thank you J. God bless you.

Pearl