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67岁双胞胎孕妇的生育困境:他们封杀我 我不是怪物
2018年09月27日 来源:澎湃新闻 记者 袁璐 实习生 郭心怡 田玉心【编辑:房家梁】
  一名67岁双胞胎孕妇的生育困境
  张茹终生所想的,莫过于有一个自己的孩子。此时,她正第二次怀着孕,双胞胎。但她今年已经67岁,生下这两个孩子可能会要了她的命。
  她看上去比实际年龄年轻几岁,卷曲的头发是黑色的,仔细看,发根处的白发开始冒出来,一些皱纹穿插在她沧桑的脸上,额头,眼角,嘴角。
  无论如何,能看出来她是一个老人,怀孕的老人,年轻人的某些优越感消失殆尽。
  进入花甲之年后,张茹经历了失去独子,领养孩子,做试管婴儿,再度怀孕……漫长的痛苦和闪现的希望,她把生孩子视为个体选择,未料随之而来的种种令她身处困境。
  对一些人来说,她执着的生育意愿有些自私和不计后果;而对张茹来说,这象征着“重生”。这是一个道德上的无人之地。
  高龄产妇
  9月16日,上午十点,咖啡厅。张茹轻轻啜饮着一杯菊花茶水。黑底碎花长裙盖过她的膝盖,怀孕的肚子微微凸起。
  她面前的桌子上,放着一堆产检报告,好像带有墨迹的一副纸牌。最近一次检查,B超检查单上显示,一个胎心率144次每分,另一个150次每分,医生说120到160是正常值。另一张是无创检查的报告,排除胎儿患染色体疾病的可能。这让她长舒一口气。
  因为孕前吃过激素,她的血压有时升高。 时间往前走,一些负面影响在她身上显露出来。在激素作用下,她的手臂和腿上冒出一块块豌豆大小的老年斑。“但其他指标都正常”,她加重语气,补充了一句。
  十点半,张茹从购物袋里取出药,几粒白色盐酸拉贝洛尔,送至口中,就着一杯白水咽了下去。间隔四五个小时再服用一次。怀孕以来,她每天服用的药片数量从六片涨到八片,再涨到十片。
  几杯茶下肚后,张茹起身去卫生间,她从商场走廊的一头穿到另一头。从卫生间出来,她感觉有点累了,靠在一扇玻璃窗口旁边透气。
  回去的路上,她额头不断渗出汗珠,“低血糖,茶水的缘故”,她警觉道。在一家饮品店门口,张茹顺着椅子坐下去。
  肚子里的孩子已经十六周,随着肚子逐渐变大,负荷变重,她偶尔会感到吃力和疲惫,也总有路过行人的目光瞟向她的肚子,接着是她的脸。
  张茹不在意投射来的目光,她也不躲避。“我不是怪物。”有时,她看起来像一个精力充沛的中年人,一遍又一遍地讲述她产检的经历。

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2018/09/28 06:40

逾半孕产妇有高危因素 如何不让她们被“生门”卡住
2018年09月26日 来源: 中国青年报·中青在线记者 江山 【编辑:刘羡】

科学现场  不让一个高危孕产妇被“生门”卡住
  杭州市妇产科医院危重孕产妇救治中心绿色通道。中国青年报·中青在线记者 江山/摄
  电话这端,葛巧玲神色焦急,她所在的杭州市上城区一名高危孕产妇张荣拒绝入院治疗。
  孕妇张荣倾诉着无奈:丈夫出差,孩子需要接送,自己要上班,“没犯什么大病,希望晚点住院”。
  这是杭州上城区妇幼保健计划生育服务中心(下文简称“中心”)与高危孕产妇的一次博弈,发生在今年年初,张荣被诊断为妊娠型高血压,情况危急,亟须住院。
  作为该中心妇保科科长,葛巧玲深知延误治疗的危害。2016年,一名孕妇的妊娠高血压时隐时现,没有被及时发现,后来突发脑溢血,胎儿早产夭折。37天的抢救与治疗最终也没能挽救女子的生命。
  这个死亡病例终结了上城区连续16年孕产妇零死亡的记录。从2014年起,原国家卫计委通知要求,将孕产妇死亡率、婴儿死亡率、5岁以下儿童死亡率等妇幼健康核心指标纳入政府目标责任考核。与此同时,中国高危孕产妇的比例从1996年的7.3%上升至2016年的24.7%。2016年,浙江高危孕产妇的比例为56.1%,在全国31个省(区、市)位居第二。....

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-28 07:03 回覆:

胎儿早产夭折。37天的抢救与治疗最终也没能挽救女子的生命。

--i wonder any chance to inquire the 女子 and her husband, will they still insist 生孩子 running the high risk life? how is the husband now? if possible interview the next case before the wife dies.

the better way is to listen to our ancestors advices in time for marry, for  生孩子. for those too late to marry better make sure have enough money saved to 生孩子 and insurance company should offer another policy for those high risk but insist  生孩子. hospitals, insurance companies shouldn't drag down for those deliberately  生孩子. other people also should not pay more insurance to cover for them. i had chance to marry in time but i didn't and i knew the risk i would suffer in the future. i hope those unmarried writers don't encourage young girls learn from them but listen to our ancestors advices. the one in taiwan wrote a book encourage to be single when we were in university. while taiwan also lack of single young men but rotten parties for their filthy benefits still blockade taiwan people make friend with china people. we were the most unlucky be sacrified for nothing.


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2018/09/27 23:06

the last thing i felt is they asked too many... want babies and assume all are healthy, want be safe, if they die earlier and kids got serious problems then leave to government if the trusted relative fails. that's why she got imagination 他们封杀我 in stead of saving her life .  I found out my spouse asked too many when i realized he won't protect me because he wants me and the uknown person. most family would think their family first but not my spouse. he knew if he dies no one visits his tomb. i already told him to make choice because the other side wants more and more from us. i haven't see any one i knew would let other relatives know how much money they have and won't let them control money/house but my naive spouse is too show off. he let the unknown person control us. why would any side missing him? the other side hates him didn't divorce me to get all, i hate him let the person abuse me. he kept tell me did good to me, i inquired him can he tell me one damn good thing for me but i can list many what the person did? my spouse really asked too much that's why problem can't be solved.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 23:06 回覆:
same as the couple, if they really want they can spend money in HG/taiwan, asia countries, no need to accuse china doctors/hospital, the only reason i can think is they also want the cheapest fee to get what they want.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-28 05:29 回覆:
i already heard many sues if patients and relatives blame doctors for something can't get they expect. the only way is let those deliberately patients go to HK/taiwan, asia even usa if they could. they can't but accepted prety much the same results and can't sue(won't so easy without losing more money especially in usa).

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2018/09/27 21:48
儿子去世半年后,张茹和丈夫商量,要么领养一个孩子,要么一起死。他们选择了前者。当你生不如死时,所有看似危险的事情你都愿意尝试。
--all suicders felt the same thing but many regret when the death coming, in the end other bravery people who save suicders died for them. sometimes i really try to tell those bravery people don't sacrify their life for suicders when too dagerous.
--another they felt it because the son died they are not used and felt empty but it is temporary sooner or later the negative feeling be gone.
--believe me no one wants die, they said that because to find excuses to get what they want now.
whenever the abuser hurts me i also felt 生不如死 and hate my spouse to the death because he can't deal things in right way then never should marry. i'm still alive so far.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 21:50 回覆:
china doctor can do one more thing for her(because it's her life in risk) to inquire both if either 孩子 or 妻子 can be saved what the husband selects? what about the wife choice?
it never 100% guarantee your baby are healthy even in usa especially any bad situation can happen as she is too old, twin babies... do they and their trusted relative prepare well?
maybe i don't love my spouse as much as the  妻子 does, myself definitely won't risk my life for baby that my spouse wants especially we are not poor. (in fact he has problem and didn't want adopt not even supporting me to do test tube baby because those not blood related to him at all)
去养老院 to our generation in taiwan we already accepted (not my mom generation) including my sister who has 2 sons doesn't trust her kids would take care them as we did for mom, however in china still not many prepare well that's why even today still insist to have their own. in fact our family also considering other sibling kids to take care if rich enough.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 22:34 回覆:

taiwanese-so-called parents from taiwan visited the daugter family nearby our old house there, the father died suddenly then their son in taiwan came, both forced their mom divides all money for them then would take care her.
she took another neigbour's mom
(from taiwan) advices hold money tightly but none kid let her live together.

my mom side we have 3舅舅 and 3 姨母. 2姨母1舅舅 were single. their parents were very very rich in china and then eldest 姨母 was married and controlled money. her son got kids and were deeply loved by 2姨母1舅舅. the son invested beach hotel and they all put lots money supported him but was set up and lost everything. in the end him and then kid supporting 2姨母1舅舅 living togeter. they had quite tough time.

so i told my spouse better take care by ourselves not rely on others. if only if rich enough there is no worry.

i also told my sister keeps money for themselves and better live next to their sons if only if not asking mow the lawns, shovel snows... it would be fine. because another parents from taiwan living next to their son but the son didn't help mow the lawns, shovel snows.. in the end 老死不相往来.


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2018/09/27 18:43

our old lady another son until this year got a baby , both are at 50?(i would confirm again). the wife running farmer-tools hardware store, the son running Air Condition related busness, after pregant he stop his business took over wife's store. their age and economic situation is OK to have a baby. And quite lucky so far the baby seems healthy. 

the son living with old lady he divorced twice and got a son who married asian? wife and got a retard kid. it is really tough for parents.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:53 回覆:
from the story it is they can't come out from the dead sons and kind of got mental problem. i would say if they spend time to learn our ancestors 预测 they may release from the painful lost kids and accept the fate. but it is too late if they can't get what they want and willing risk her life. the worst if they never think of the baby may have serious disease then can they take care, $10,000 income and savings can cover all expenses? if both die will their relatives take care their kids? what they want kids for? to take care them when they need. from what i saw they both plan to live up 80+ while their kids about 10+ years old. I can't see they get what they really want.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 19:19 回覆:

北京有三套房

--in this case i would say because they thought they are rich enough can have babies without problem even if they die earlier their relatives would take care their kids.in this case they have to make sure theyrelatives love the kids no matter what kind of diseases or else. i felt strange why risk her life in stead of adopt their trust relatives kids (i bet they all willing to have extra rich parents)? I would say let the wife spend their money to go to taiwan or usa (if usa allows) since they got imagination can't trust any hospital in china. china hospital doctors are very unlucky met a mental problem(dipressed, anxiety included).patient.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 19:24 回覆:

张茹提议把儿子的女友认作女儿,但丈夫担心认的女儿将来要赡养四个老人,压力太大,便放弃了这一想法。

--this is quite weird, it is not 女儿将来要赡养四个老人,压力太大 because at least they are rich enough, no pressure for the adopted daughter at all. it is they don't trust the daughter who might steal their money for her side parents even her future boyfriend/husband.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 19:43 回覆:

i felt strange why risk her life in stead of adopt their trust relatives kids (i bet they all willing to have extra rich parents)?

--obviously they don't trust their trusted relative kids either. in this case why would they believe if they die earlier the trusted relative really takes care their kids? maybe it is all about they can't face the fate, just want risk her life tries one more time if fails then accept 他和妻子就去养老院,“孤独终老”. the worst is if his wife and/or babies die will he feel guilty for her?

两个月前,他刚见过亲家,在回龙观给孩子买了套120平方米的婚房。年底,他将看着儿子娶一个姑娘回家,应该很快就会有孙子或孙女。

--the adopted son may either 乐极生悲 or 童子命 so called if whenever he got girfriends either easy sick or bad lucks.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 19:57 回覆:
there is another reason cause it that people gossip behind their back about what happened to their kids. so they wanted to fight back to prove it.
她当下需要一个医疗团队,给她提供生理和心理的支持和抚慰。
--from what i see all she needs is let her do whatever she wants nothing else. the question is any doctor willing take the reputation risk and responsibility if failure? any doctor can lie to support her?
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 20:18 回覆:

他和妻子就去养老院,“孤独终老”

--i really don't think so if they willing help other people unless their money is not enough can't help other people. i would say they are very lack of confidence. if i were them i would rather spend time in studying our ancestors stories, if possible have trips in china (because foreigh countries are quite unsafe and racial bias especially in usa ), take 预测 classes, learning 古华夏星宿... our ancestors left many kind for us you always can find one you are interested. they also can write their experiences and opinions like i did here, maybe no one read but it helps you to think things more clearly by writing down. 

I'm quite enjoy my life except the unknown person abuses my body.

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-28 04:58 回覆:
ps when my mom side relatives (in taiwan) talked about their investment in beach hotel, my sister wanted to join but turned down because my mom had too little money. when the business turned bad we really appreciated not draged down or none of us can continue education.


ps i would suggest china 心理专家s find out which our ancestors stories can attaract their patients interesting. for certain me-type patients the best way is transfer their 注意力 into their interesting things. I save myself by studying our ancestors stories especially 预测 stories help lots. this is not 迷信 when you smart enough use it in right way. it depends how you use it.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-28 05:16 回覆:
for those job as 预测 also can help people since our ancestors did.
certainly do existig frauds same as other job types, people should be smart enough protect their money well, not become victims. myself studying by search baidu for free and i'm really very appreciated baidu and their posters and others.
心理专家s also can encourage their patients create their blogs-like writing dwon their thinking which also can help them venting out in stead of piling up can't come out.
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-28 05:45 回覆:

(Canada)蓝可儿到底是自杀还是被谋杀, she had a blog and i visited.

--be honest to me very likely she was murdered. unfortunately she came to usa if she didn't she would be alive. usa detective should at least do the test to verify whether on the hotel building water tank the dead body head down in stead of floating. it is no so difficult to convince people who suspect suicde story.


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2018/09/27 18:26
“极高危”
  今年6月,怀孕后,张茹在北京宝岛妇产医院进行了首次产检,当时被医生诊断出患有妊娠高血压。随即被列为高危产妇,后由北京宝岛妇产医院转诊到北京大学第三医院治疗。
北京宝岛妇产医院主任医师谢峰在接受央视采访时回忆,他们发现张茹当时的血压比较高,在妊娠期间,她出现一系列问题的风险非常高,比如说随时会出现脑血管意外,以及急性肝肾功能衰竭。按照北京市卫计委的要求,这样的孕产妇在二级医院继续接诊、产检并不合适,所以当天就将她转诊到三级综合医院。张茹转去了北京大学第三医院。“第一次各方面检查还行,第二次去是7月23日,医生就跟我说必须拿掉一个孩子,不然北京大学第三医院不收。”
  丈夫李威回忆,北京大学第三医院的医生告诉他,“必须要做掉一个,只要一针下去,孩子就可以流掉。”他模仿医生的语气重复那句话。
  北京市卫生计生委公众权益保障处处长姚铁男告诉澎湃新闻,之前,他们掌握了张茹前期的情况,“67岁,对我们来说到超高龄产妇,并且怀的是双胎,妊娠的合并高血压到了170多。”之后,卫计委在8月8日召开了第一次全市的专家会议。“专家说她是极高危,极严重的高危孕产妇,在目前医疗条件下,不能保证其母婴一定安全。医生建议她减胎。”
  北医三院接诊张茹的李诗兰医生在接受《新京报》采访时说,科室主任找到张茹谈及终止妊娠,但张茹表示不同意进行引产。
  张茹担心的情况是,如果引去一个孩子,另一个孩子可能也保不住。她又去了北京市妇产医院做产检,医生也提出了终止妊娠的建议。姚铁男说,第二次专家会诊是在8月13号,“临床和服务管理专家最后认为张某是极严重高危孕产妇,属不宜妊娠,严重威胁到母婴安全,但应尊重其妊娠的意愿,适时科学引导。”
  几次之后,张茹不愿再去这几所医院,不安的情绪像气球越胀越大。9月初,张茹和丈夫去了五洲医院,“开药时被拒绝”。9月13号,张茹到北京宝岛医院进行怀孕以来第四次产检。医院通知她下午四点半之前过去,那天到了以后,张茹和丈夫在三楼等着,四点四十五,有人通知他们到地下一楼。
  姚铁男说,北京市有高危孕产妇的转诊网络,怀孕后建档时会评估孕妇的身体状况,分成绿色、黄色、橙色、红色和紫色,根据不同级别建议孕妇去相应的医疗机构就诊,比如橙色要求在区级危重症孕产妇抢救指定医院就诊,红色要在市级的危重孕产妇抢救指定医院就诊;紫色是合并传染病,需要在专科医院接诊。
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:27 回覆:
9月13号是第三次专家会诊,张茹最想去的那家医院不是她的对口医院,“她坚持要去一个特别大的医院,我们现在不好披露这家医院的名字,但不是我们指定的整个网络中那两家。我们给她指定了两家特别好的三级医院,包括北医三院,但是她说不去。”
  张茹回忆,那天,围着自己的有二十个人,绕着桌子一圈坐着,有人拿着摄像机拍摄。“说是专家会诊,但还是建议我停止妊娠。”
  “由于来多次就诊,结果显示孕妇的血压很高,没有得到有效控制,专家会诊的意见是患者目前状态不易妊娠。”姚铁男说。
  “我的血压已经降下去了。”张茹感觉自己好像站在审判席上。她始终认为,被剥夺的是她做母亲的自由。“他们封杀我,你知道吗?或者说,在某种程度上,他们是谋杀我和孩子。”
  一位知名产科专家告诉澎湃新闻,67岁的妇女,不管是生育机能还是其他器官都在退行性改变,流产、早产、胎儿功能发育迟缓、胎死宫内等情况较普通孕妇更易发生,能理解失独家庭的愿望,只是以普遍认知来说,得到一个好结果的可能性不是很大,因此他不赞成,也不提倡这样高龄生育。
  这位产科专家也曾接到过张茹的求助,在他看来,尽管有前述问题,但张茹“有这么强的决心,也已经(怀孕)这么多周”,应该尽量给她提供帮助,她当下需要一个医疗团队,给她提供生理和心理的支持和抚慰。
  姚铁男也表示,在张茹的生育愿望前,“应该尽可能帮助产妇达成她的愿望,但前提是不危及生命”。他称,特别希望孕妇尽快回到宝岛医院,或者回到他们指定的三级医院。
  但眼下,张茹对指定的医院失去了信任。失独
  张茹曾经有过一个孩子。
  她和李威1978年结婚,1980年生下一个儿子。儿子一岁半时,夫妻俩又有过一个孩子,彼时赶上计划生育政策,他们打掉了肚子里的孩子。李威“最爱孩子”,姐姐和同事家的孩子他都帮忙照看过。
  李威是上世纪60年代机械专业的中专生,后来参加了北京市的统考,考上了职工大学。数学是他的强项,辅导儿子功课的任务落在他身上,“我教他数学,错的题只要讲一次,第二遍他就会了。”
儿子喜欢游泳,李威每天骑着老式自行车,后面驮着背数学乘法表的儿子,早上五点多,送他去游泳馆,从一年级持续到六年级。一家三口经常骑车去亚运村的游泳馆,张茹一次能游五百米,李威游三百米。
  四年前,一切戛然而止。儿子34岁时,死于一场车祸。
  那时,儿子在首都机场上班。2016年六月的一天,他跟朋友出去玩,午夜十二点还没回家。夫妻俩习惯等到儿子回家才睡觉。十二点多,李威等来派出所的电话,说孩子出了车祸,送去了医院。夫妻俩立马赶往医院,“那时他(儿子)意识还很清醒,告诉警察我们的联系方式,跟我们说他被车撞了。”接着,儿子被送进了急救室,他的肋骨被压碎插入肺部,腹腔出血,外表却看不出任何征兆。
  凌晨四点,医生通知夫妻俩,孩子抢救无效。张茹瘫坐在医院的地板上,哭晕过去。李威记得,儿子最后说的一句话是,“看到我爸来了我就安心了。”
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:28 回覆:
两个月前,他刚见过亲家,在回龙观给孩子买了套120平方米的婚房。年底,他将看着儿子娶一个姑娘回家,应该很快就会有孙子或孙女。
  夫妻二人从警察那里得知,儿子在路边拦出租车被撞,遭到二次碾压,司机肇事逃逸。出事地点正在施工,四周漆黑,附近没有摄像头。
  儿子骤然离世,没有给张茹和李威留下任何喘息的空隙。凶手至今没抓到,张茹连怨怼的对象都没有,生活是无尽的无望,无尽的空虚。
  时间越久,记忆似乎越清晰。“一切好像没有发生过”,有时候李威梦到孩子,不知从哪里突然出现在面前。只要一睁眼,都是他的影像。
  小时候,儿子是朝阳区游泳队的队员,每天有一块钱的工钱,发下来他都会交给李威。有段时间李威经常出差,去外地学习,儿子总跑去车站送他,哭得稀里哗啦。这个父亲每次出差回来也总给儿子买小坦克,小礼物。“他跟我的感情很深…很深…”
  李威停顿下来,陷入遥远的追忆,声音又开始哽咽。他在努力抑制眼泪。
“他两岁多的时候,我们住在筒子楼,一层楼很多房间,多户人家,有个同事给了他一块糖吃,回来后他还记得是谁给他的,哪个房子他记得,那时候他还不会说话,但会用手指着那个方向……三岁的时候,他爸骑自行车带他出去买菜,买了一大捆菠菜,车筐子放不下,他都知道把菜往下压……真的太聪明了……”
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:29 回覆:
当张茹说起她的儿子时,她的面部抽搐,声音哽咽,眼睛变得湿润,说话的音调更高了,突然间失控,啜泣起来。丈夫提醒她控制住情绪,不要影响到肚子里的孩子。
  儿子的户口一直没销,在这个城市,“哪里都有儿子的影子,他上学的地方,玩耍的地方”,他们试过旅行,去桂林,南海,云南,韩国,但每次回来,心里依旧“空落落的”。
  任何一次长途旅行,都会有一种风景和时间的扭曲。每次出行,张茹都会背着儿子的书包,带着儿子的三张照片,一张2014年,两张中学时期的。照片中的男孩儿,寸头,微胖,笑容憨厚。仿佛这样,时间形同停滞,她似乎回到过去,和儿子相处的那些日子。
  李威不敢看儿子的照片,他的房间也不敢踏进去,人在门外,腿就像被钉住似的迈不开,“失去孩子意味着什么,你永远不知道。”
  出路
  儿子去世半年后,张茹和丈夫商量,要么领养一个孩子,要么一起死。他们选择了前者。
  2014年,张茹距离六十四岁只有三个月,儿子的后事还没处理完,她和丈夫就去了民政局。对方告知,办理收养原则上年龄限制到六十五岁,领养孩子需要登记排队等待。
  一年后,她再次去民政局,对方告诉她仍需排队。根据《领养法》,收养人需具备抚养被收养人的能力,以及年满三十周岁。张茹提议把儿子的女友认作女儿,但丈夫担心认的女儿将来要赡养四个老人,压力太大,便放弃了这一想法。
2016年4月,张茹夫妇去了云南,到当地福利院领养孩子,答复是“本省需要孩子都特别多”。5月,夫妻俩去了河北承德一家孤儿院,但孤儿院大门紧闭不让进入,他们把买的水果衣物等搁下后离开了。7月,二人又去了北京的太阳村,那里住着不少无人抚养的服刑人员未成年子女,但不让领养,最后两人失望而归。有次在一家私人医院,李威听说可以找人代孕,五十万元一个孩子。但权衡下来,觉得代孕是非法的,不能做。
  漫长的跋涉后,试管婴儿成了夫妻俩的最后选择。
  早在2015年底,张茹就考虑过做试管,她联系上安徽合肥人盛海琳,后者在60岁时通过试管受孕生下一对双胞胎。张茹想从她那里打听做试管婴儿的途径,但被对方拒绝了,只告诉张茹做一个五万块钱左右。后来,张茹没再联系她。
  如今,盛海琳已经不记得张茹曾找过她,前几日她从新闻里得知张茹怀孕的消息,并说自己给不了任何建议。
  2016年10月,在北京的国际医疗展上,张茹认识了一个台湾医生,并恳求医生为自己做试管婴儿。医生说,以她的年纪做试管婴儿有风险。张茹说自己接受任何风险。“当你生不如死时,所有看似危险的事情你都愿意尝试。”
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:30 回覆:
2017年2月,张茹开始吃激素,直到月经回来。吃药的同时,配合着身体上的锻炼,打球,游泳。但吃激素的第五个月,她的血压开始升高,久坐后站立格外吃力。
  7月,她去了北京妇产医院看中医,说自己想做试管婴儿,医生给她开了三十五天的药调理身体,月经和身体恢复正常。
  张茹曾在网上遍寻高龄产妇的案例。“东北64岁有个产妇,2016年12月28号生的; 2016年的9月份,杭州那人从美国回来生的;还有2017年有个52岁生孩子的。”她能清楚记得每一个高龄产妇的年龄,以及她们生下孩子的日期。
  去台湾之前,张茹咨询过北京的几家大医院,但回复都是她年龄太大,不能做试管婴儿。张茹想不明白,“谁要失独,谁还选择年龄啊?”
  今年6月,李威和妻子去了台湾。中介全程带着他们,物色好卵子,找了律师事务所,办理好手续,再去医院交钱,身体做了全面检查。一趟下来,夫妻俩花费二十多万元。
  那天是6月8日,医生筛选出二十多个卵子,用精子配成八个胚胎,再从中筛选出四个,两男两女。张茹担心成功率低,想放入三个胚胎,医生告诉她不行,万一三个都成活,要引产的话另外两个也会受到影响。最后决定放入两个胚胎。张茹躺在床上,心里想的全是去世的儿子。一直默念,让儿子原谅她,保佑她成功生下孩子。三天后,夫妻俩返回北京,带着仅剩的一千元钱。
  从台湾回来后,6月19号,有了好消息。张茹到北京宝岛妇产医院验血,检查了三次,确定怀上了双胞胎,两个胚胎全部成活。她成了国内目前已知的年纪最大的孕妇。
  张茹没有想到两个胚胎同时成活,“早知道这样,我移植一个多好。”那天晚上,她第一次梦到了去世的儿子,丈夫也做了同样的梦。
  张茹83岁的姐姐一直站在她那边,姐姐是退休的军医,她曾告诉过张茹妊娠的风险,但无论结果如何,“最后做选择的都是张茹自己。”
蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:31 回覆:

未来
  回到咖啡厅,隔壁桌的四个年轻人已经离开,音乐声越来越大。张茹坐在一张高脚椅上,确保她的腿能伸展开来。
  张茹有微信,会上网,但这些新鲜事物不是她擅长的。网上的声音通过亲人的嘴巴断断续续传到她耳边,她自认有义无反顾的生育理由,方式更是“合理合法”,“我失去孩子时没人管我,如今我想生孩子却百般责难我?”这是她挂在嘴边最多的话。
  她在手机上翻看着盛海琳的新闻。“她当初也植入了三个,后来流产一个,还有两个。”张茹嘴里念叨着,目光转向丈夫说,“你看盛海琳说不能让孩子产生自卑的情绪,你以后跟教育儿子还不一样,得用好多的办法,不仅仅是鼓励,该严的时候还是要严。”这些话快速而激烈地滚出,像一篇祈祷文。
  李威身体前倾,仔细听着妻子的话,“现在的生活真的枯燥无味。盛海琳说现在痛并快乐着,她有孩子所以还能有一些快乐。” 他戴着印有五角星的鸭舌帽,肩膀显得臃肿,站起来给妻子倒水时,弯腰屈背,步履缓慢,皱纹像兵团一样,将它的领地征服。
  关于以后孩子的教育问题,张茹想过。儿子生前,从重点中学读到重点大学,这让她坚信自己能复制儿子“成功的教育模式”。她也担心,和孩子年龄上的差距总会引来一些非议。“或许会遭到歧视,我要想法不让他们留下阴影。”
  张茹喜欢音乐,跳舞,会手风琴,电子琴,“教育孩子,我们是合格的。”她说自己曾是一个热爱生活的人,对将来如何抚养好这两个孩子信心十足。“现在的年轻人和我们那个年代的年轻人不一样,有的想法比较超前。”爱人守旧,她认为社会不断发展变化,教育孩子的方式也要伺机而变。夫妻俩有积蓄,退休工资一万多元,经济上算富足,他对养育两个孩子充满信心。

怀孕后,张茹摆脱了长久的失眠。她依旧用着儿子的微信号,有时看看他大学同学群里的信息,“看他们年轻人说话聊天,我感觉我儿子还活着。”
  张茹在北京有三套房,其中一套是儿子生前住的。出事后,她把屋子里的东西都搬走后出租,没再去过。为了避开闲言碎语,夫妻俩搬离了原来的住所,另外租了一间房,相依为命,“我就是她的拐棍。”李威说。
  张茹的目标是至少坚持到明年一月,胎儿满七个月,医生告诉她,孩子在她肚子里多养一天,生下来的成功率越高。李威开玩笑说,不行买个轮椅。
  “我们也知道有风险,实在不行还是保住大人。但现在情况还不错,可以继续往下走。” 李威每天给妻子量三次血压,然后记录在表里。

蝙蝠(amtrak) 於 2018-09-27 18:31 回覆:
从年轻时起,张茹就有锻炼的习惯,每天游泳,跑步,直到孕前。为了防止血稠,她每天按时吃几粒阿司匹林,再喝杯温水。
  中午,张茹点了一份凉皮,有时候心里感到燥热,总想吃些凉凉的东西。“我没那么娇弱,真的。”她会在身边的人想照顾她时强调这句话。
  在顾客进进出出的咖啡厅中,张茹和丈夫无疑是年纪最大的人。他们不喝咖啡,点了一壶菊花茶。说话的声音偶尔盖过了咖啡厅里的音乐声。
  午饭后,李威倚靠在皮质沙发上睡着了,伴随着轻微的呼噜声。这几年,照顾妻子的责任落在他身上。他今年70岁,每天早上吃一粒维生素E和降血糖的药。
  妻子怀孕以后,他唯一的任务是让日渐衰老的身体重新焕发活力,对抗这个年龄可能拥有的疾病。他甚至有种意念,自己绝不能早早死去。他必须活得更长久。
  他和妻子的设想是,孩子顺利生下来,请个保姆,等他/她大点,找人模拟一张全家福,把儿子也刻上去。
  他们想,奔着活到八十多岁的目标,把孩子抚养到成年,一场告别后,再把他们托付给信任的亲人。
  如果没要上孩子,他和妻子就去养老院,“孤独终老”。
  (为保护受访者隐私,文中张茹、李威为化名)